It's been a while

Hi to those who are still reading this? I presume there is no one reading here already but out of the blue I realized that I had a blog and decided to write on it.
What is there to say? Hmmmmm, it's been a year since I first started my job. What do i think of it honestly? Erm, actually the company I'm working at now has a very laid back atmosphere and colleagues are very helpful (well, most of them). However, i don't know if it is a good place to work. I think I am getting complacent here. I think i really need a good kick in the butt. I also seem to be not taking any interest at all of my work here. I don't know if I'm in the right field as well.

It seems that my quarter life crisis is creeping back again. Actually I think it never really go away. My one over year in Malaysia has given me mixed feelings. I still don't want to stay here long term but I'm getting comfortable here. Whenever I get too comfortable, I feel guilty thus get agitated.

Maybe what someone told me was right. I shouldn't be always looking for excuses and exit options etc etc. Should just look down and bulldoze your way through and not always looking everywhere thinking where to go but not moving.

Recollections of Thoughts

As some would know, recently a schoolmate of mine suddenly passed away. Seeing how much he has achieved within that 23 years makes me shameful and small at the same time. I ponder upon whether I could even achieve what he has in my lifetime.

I'd never knew him personally. In secondary school there were 5 science classes. In a way the first three science classes was the smart ones while the last two weren't the so good classes. I was in the latter thus I guess I'd developed an inferiority complex. Well, predictably he was in the smarter class so I'd labeled him like the rest of the people in the first three science classes as snobbish smart people. Looking back I was being so judgmental. What's more unfortunate is that I still am a judgmental prick.

I remembered not too long ago I attended a seminar and that that person asked me what would the tombstone say about you? What legacy would you leave behind? What you would had contributed to society up till then? I look at that person half cursing him as my shallow mind thought he is cursing me that I would die young. In view of recent events, I guess it's time to seriously think of those questions posed onto me.

Cutting Steam

There was this instance I was talking to a girl who is shy and pretty at the same time. Anywayz, I manage to strike a conversation about general things like what school we went to bla bla bla.

Everything was going quite well as we stroll along. She even asked for my number exchanged numbers. Then we continued talking for a while and then came along a question from me.

"So what did you do during the holidays?" I asked.
"Oh, I went to Singapore and stayed there for two months" she replied.
"Wow! That's quite nice" I said
"Yea I was there with my boyfriend in Singapore yada yada yada bla bla bla"
*speechless*

Haih, so potong steam.

Man dies after being set ablaze by girlfriend

For those who thinks only men are the violent ones who abuse their girlfriend/wife, please read this. Hope this breaks the stereotype of domestic violence are caused by men.

http://www.thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2008/12/22/nation/20081222154135&sec=nation

JOHOR BARU: A 32-year-old man died after he was set ablaze by an assailant, believed to be his girlfriend.

G. Ganipathy was set on fire at a house in Taman Ungku Tun Aminah at about 7.30am on Sunday.

It is learnt that the victim had been renting a room with his girlfriend at the house. The suspect had allegedly doused him with petrol and set him on fire before escaping.

Ganipathy was in the toilet when the incident occurred. His housemates, who heard his screams, rushed in and quickly put out the fire before sending him to Sultanah Aminah Hospital.

However Ganipathy, who was 90% burnt, succumbed to his injuries at about 10pm the same day.

Johor Baru (North) OCPD Asst Comm Ruslan Hassan said police had identified the suspect, who is a 45-year-old woman.

“We are currently tracking down the suspect and are confident of apprehending her soon,” he said when contacted here on Monday.

He said police have classified the case as murder under Section 302 of the Penal Code.

“We are exploring all angles in the investigation,” he said, adding that the body had been sent for post-mortem.

The Negative Effects of Low Gas Prices

I think most people now would be really relieved that gas prices are on a 3 year low, albeit to Malaysians it wouldn't really matter as they are ripping off RM16 million a day off us. Anyhow, across the sea to the US of A, gas prices are less than half of what I used to pump a few months ago. During that 'good old days', gas prices was so bad that demands for alternative fuels sprang up, where the most popular alternative was electric propulsion. For those who really can't figure out, it means electric cars.

Ever since the fall of gas prices, the sales and interest of electric cars fell as well. Heck, since gas is so cheap why bother with the electric cars which is generally more expensive and has limited distance. The answer is very simple, and that gas prices would go up again.

The problem with us human beings are that we fail to see things long term. It takes a very wise man to envision the future. For the rest of us, we're just rejoicing over cheap gas, like I myself. My immense interest and research towards electric cars suddenly comes to a screeching halt and it has been months since I read up an article about those companies like Aptera and Tesla. I can safely assume that the average person would had all but forgotten about those electric cars as well.

So there you go, our addiction to oil is here to stay and hopefully those electric car companies are able to withstand the economy downturn as well. While typical companies benefit from low gas prices, it means less interest on electric cars which are typically more expensive than the gasoline car.

Are You Stupid?

Please read this article here http://edition.cnn.com/2008/US/11/19/autos.ceo.jets/index.html . You know I can't imagine how fucking stupid this people can be. These guys are paid millions a year to run a company that is losing billions a month! It is no wonder the Detroit 3 are going down. They really should just go down.

A Scent From The Past

Just this evening, my dad came back from Kota Kinabalu, the land of the blow-pipers. Nevermind about them, the thing was that my sister's in-laws stay in KK and that they just came back from the US, where they were staying with my sister and her husband. Before they came back, I ask my sister to help me get two bottles of body shampoo that is not available in Malaysia. I got it alright, plus a Calvin Klein working shirt and a Nike long sleeve sports attire with the price tags still attached to it. As I look at the price tag while sniffing the body shampoo (I know it's wierd...whatever!), I closed my eyes and for a while imagined I was in the good 'ol US with even cheaper gas prices than Malaysia, blazing internet speeds and 'o so cold weather with fairy-tale snow.

Seriously though, time really flew by this time. It has been almost three months since I got back to Malaysia. Furthermore, the past three weeks was spent in acclimating myself to my new job, which like everything new and unfamiliar is quite a challenge. So when I came back home and got hold of these items, I was feeling all nostalgic again.


The body shampoo!!!



The two clothings that I have.


The view from my room of the car covered with fluffy white snow.

As annoying as it is, I really miss snow now......