For those who thinks only men are the violent ones who abuse their girlfriend/wife, please read this. Hope this breaks the stereotype of domestic violence are caused by men.
http://www.thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2008/12/22/nation/20081222154135&sec=nation
JOHOR BARU: A 32-year-old man died after he was set ablaze by an assailant, believed to be his girlfriend.
G. Ganipathy was set on fire at a house in Taman Ungku Tun Aminah at about 7.30am on Sunday.
It is learnt that the victim had been renting a room with his girlfriend at the house. The suspect had allegedly doused him with petrol and set him on fire before escaping.
Ganipathy was in the toilet when the incident occurred. His housemates, who heard his screams, rushed in and quickly put out the fire before sending him to Sultanah Aminah Hospital.
However Ganipathy, who was 90% burnt, succumbed to his injuries at about 10pm the same day.
Johor Baru (North) OCPD Asst Comm Ruslan Hassan said police had identified the suspect, who is a 45-year-old woman.
“We are currently tracking down the suspect and are confident of apprehending her soon,” he said when contacted here on Monday.
He said police have classified the case as murder under Section 302 of the Penal Code.
“We are exploring all angles in the investigation,” he said, adding that the body had been sent for post-mortem.
Monday, December 22, 2008
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
The Negative Effects of Low Gas Prices
I think most people now would be really relieved that gas prices are on a 3 year low, albeit to Malaysians it wouldn't really matter as they are ripping off RM16 million a day off us. Anyhow, across the sea to the US of A, gas prices are less than half of what I used to pump a few months ago. During that 'good old days', gas prices was so bad that demands for alternative fuels sprang up, where the most popular alternative was electric propulsion. For those who really can't figure out, it means electric cars.
Ever since the fall of gas prices, the sales and interest of electric cars fell as well. Heck, since gas is so cheap why bother with the electric cars which is generally more expensive and has limited distance. The answer is very simple, and that gas prices would go up again.
The problem with us human beings are that we fail to see things long term. It takes a very wise man to envision the future. For the rest of us, we're just rejoicing over cheap gas, like I myself. My immense interest and research towards electric cars suddenly comes to a screeching halt and it has been months since I read up an article about those companies like Aptera and Tesla. I can safely assume that the average person would had all but forgotten about those electric cars as well.
So there you go, our addiction to oil is here to stay and hopefully those electric car companies are able to withstand the economy downturn as well. While typical companies benefit from low gas prices, it means less interest on electric cars which are typically more expensive than the gasoline car.
Ever since the fall of gas prices, the sales and interest of electric cars fell as well. Heck, since gas is so cheap why bother with the electric cars which is generally more expensive and has limited distance. The answer is very simple, and that gas prices would go up again.
The problem with us human beings are that we fail to see things long term. It takes a very wise man to envision the future. For the rest of us, we're just rejoicing over cheap gas, like I myself. My immense interest and research towards electric cars suddenly comes to a screeching halt and it has been months since I read up an article about those companies like Aptera and Tesla. I can safely assume that the average person would had all but forgotten about those electric cars as well.
So there you go, our addiction to oil is here to stay and hopefully those electric car companies are able to withstand the economy downturn as well. While typical companies benefit from low gas prices, it means less interest on electric cars which are typically more expensive than the gasoline car.
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Are You Stupid?
Please read this article here http://edition.cnn.com/2008/US/11/19/autos.ceo.jets/index.html . You know I can't imagine how fucking stupid this people can be. These guys are paid millions a year to run a company that is losing billions a month! It is no wonder the Detroit 3 are going down. They really should just go down.
Monday, November 24, 2008
A Scent From The Past
Just this evening, my dad came back from Kota Kinabalu, the land of the blow-pipers. Nevermind about them, the thing was that my sister's in-laws stay in KK and that they just came back from the US, where they were staying with my sister and her husband. Before they came back, I ask my sister to help me get two bottles of body shampoo that is not available in Malaysia. I got it alright, plus a Calvin Klein working shirt and a Nike long sleeve sports attire with the price tags still attached to it. As I look at the price tag while sniffing the body shampoo (I know it's wierd...whatever!), I closed my eyes and for a while imagined I was in the good 'ol US with even cheaper gas prices than Malaysia, blazing internet speeds and 'o so cold weather with fairy-tale snow.
Seriously though, time really flew by this time. It has been almost three months since I got back to Malaysia. Furthermore, the past three weeks was spent in acclimating myself to my new job, which like everything new and unfamiliar is quite a challenge. So when I came back home and got hold of these items, I was feeling all nostalgic again.
The body shampoo!!!
The two clothings that I have.
The view from my room of the car covered with fluffy white snow.
As annoying as it is, I really miss snow now......
Seriously though, time really flew by this time. It has been almost three months since I got back to Malaysia. Furthermore, the past three weeks was spent in acclimating myself to my new job, which like everything new and unfamiliar is quite a challenge. So when I came back home and got hold of these items, I was feeling all nostalgic again.
The body shampoo!!!
The two clothings that I have.
The view from my room of the car covered with fluffy white snow.
As annoying as it is, I really miss snow now......
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Something very logical
I want you all to read this article. In my humble opinion, the person quoted in the article makes alot of sense, very noble and very forward thinking. I think he deserves to be given a good praise for spending his precious time coming up with this kind of things. It would be very beneficial to everybody.
For those who wants to know what I'm commenting about, go to this website http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2008/11/22/nation/20081122111842&sec=nation . Please tell me what you think.
For those who wants to know what I'm commenting about, go to this website http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2008/11/22/nation/20081122111842&sec=nation . Please tell me what you think.
Sunday, November 9, 2008
My first official work week
A week has passed by where I had officially started work. Honestly speaking, I feel very lost cause I dunno what to do and stuff like that. The company also had a scholarship award where I was merely an observer. My boss however told me that I would be organizing the next event which is in December.
Starting work makes me realize that I still have a lot of learning to do and experiences to go through. It is one of major points in life I guess. It is no wonder my parents was so tergila-gila over it. I guess the next big thing is, a big fat paycheck *slurp*. Actually in reality it is just a skinny skimmed no fat paycheck. Ahahaha!
Starting work makes me realize that I still have a lot of learning to do and experiences to go through. It is one of major points in life I guess. It is no wonder my parents was so tergila-gila over it. I guess the next big thing is, a big fat paycheck *slurp*. Actually in reality it is just a skinny skimmed no fat paycheck. Ahahaha!
Sunday, October 26, 2008
To put yourself in one others' shoes
It is not a big secret that I don’t get along with most people. But don’t get me wrong here as I’m not a social outcast whom couldn’t socialize with anyone. What I mean not getting along is that my views as compared to the society is often to the contrary and at most times vulnerable to misunderstanding. This is why more often than not I have to suppress my freedom of speech and to just go along with the crowd. Even on my blog I have to make sure that what is said out here does not create a misconception let alone offend people. However, exceptions once in a while on my own blog wouldn’t hurt so much I guess.
One of the better things in Malaysia as compared to the US would be that it has Hitz fm. There was a radio station back in Kalamazoo which was similar to Hitz fm; that it repeats the songs that are deemed as ‘hits’. The problem with the radio station in Kalamazoo is that they would have a severely limited amount of songs that would be put on repeat. It is as though the whole radio station is running of an ipod with just only 10 songs in it. I can still remember when I was working in the cafeteria and the Umbrella song was included in the 10 song list that in an hour you could hear ela ela ela ela eh eh eh eh under my ela ela ela eh eh eh eh a few fucking times much to my desire to shoot myself in the head.
Excuse me while I get sidetracked here. Back to Hitz fm, instead of ela ela ela ela eh eh eh you hear a lot of advertisement which are far less annoying. One of the advertisements that really got my attention was about getting people to report about women abuse. It got me thinking about how the society would react towards women abuse. Shall we live in a less civilized country I am sure that the abuser (which of course would be the men, typically the husband) would be detained and be beaten to death by a bunch of bra-burning-unshaven-armpit-hair-men-hating feminists. In a civilized country we would take pity of the abused and often or not report to the feminist agencies or whatever they call themselves. As I think about this scenario here comes my unorthodox thinking which often is controversial. Feminists can stop reading here now.
I had always wonder why would a woman choose to stay in a relationship if it was an abusive one? Given the social advancements of gender equality a women walking out of a relationship would not cause a social uproar unlike the medieval times where they would be stoned to death. By saying that walking out of the relationship is as easy as walking out. As for those who stayed on believing that their partner would change for the better and that she loves him very much, that is being abused by choice therefore the ball is in her court now. So as for those claiming to be abused and what not, I always have the feeling that they’re nothing more of attention loving people seeking to get attention by saying they were abused. Most of the time real abuse cases are rarely reported and that reported abuses are often nothing more as a way to either seek attention or to get back at their male counterparts. Believe me, I experienced this before with me claiming to be the abuser and stuff. Most of the stuff that I was accused of is absurd to say the least.
In conclusion, if you heard rumors about how this woman was abused and is the talk of the town, think again. Refrain from getting emotional and be rational for a moment. There are always two sides to a story and obviously people would twist & turn facts to their advantage and one of the lethal ammunition that women have would be to be claimed a rape/abuse victim. I’m not saying that all of them are liars; just that one should be smart enough to think twice before starting a witch hunt on the opposing sex.
One of the better things in Malaysia as compared to the US would be that it has Hitz fm. There was a radio station back in Kalamazoo which was similar to Hitz fm; that it repeats the songs that are deemed as ‘hits’. The problem with the radio station in Kalamazoo is that they would have a severely limited amount of songs that would be put on repeat. It is as though the whole radio station is running of an ipod with just only 10 songs in it. I can still remember when I was working in the cafeteria and the Umbrella song was included in the 10 song list that in an hour you could hear ela ela ela ela eh eh eh eh under my ela ela ela eh eh eh eh a few fucking times much to my desire to shoot myself in the head.
Excuse me while I get sidetracked here. Back to Hitz fm, instead of ela ela ela ela eh eh eh you hear a lot of advertisement which are far less annoying. One of the advertisements that really got my attention was about getting people to report about women abuse. It got me thinking about how the society would react towards women abuse. Shall we live in a less civilized country I am sure that the abuser (which of course would be the men, typically the husband) would be detained and be beaten to death by a bunch of bra-burning-unshaven-armpit-hair-men-hating feminists. In a civilized country we would take pity of the abused and often or not report to the feminist agencies or whatever they call themselves. As I think about this scenario here comes my unorthodox thinking which often is controversial. Feminists can stop reading here now.
I had always wonder why would a woman choose to stay in a relationship if it was an abusive one? Given the social advancements of gender equality a women walking out of a relationship would not cause a social uproar unlike the medieval times where they would be stoned to death. By saying that walking out of the relationship is as easy as walking out. As for those who stayed on believing that their partner would change for the better and that she loves him very much, that is being abused by choice therefore the ball is in her court now. So as for those claiming to be abused and what not, I always have the feeling that they’re nothing more of attention loving people seeking to get attention by saying they were abused. Most of the time real abuse cases are rarely reported and that reported abuses are often nothing more as a way to either seek attention or to get back at their male counterparts. Believe me, I experienced this before with me claiming to be the abuser and stuff. Most of the stuff that I was accused of is absurd to say the least.
In conclusion, if you heard rumors about how this woman was abused and is the talk of the town, think again. Refrain from getting emotional and be rational for a moment. There are always two sides to a story and obviously people would twist & turn facts to their advantage and one of the lethal ammunition that women have would be to be claimed a rape/abuse victim. I’m not saying that all of them are liars; just that one should be smart enough to think twice before starting a witch hunt on the opposing sex.
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Overpaying in Malaysia
To be honest with you, I'd already gotten used to Malaysia. However, there are some things that I long to have like my own car, cheap stuff and a host of other things. I've come to realize that living in Malaysia is really expensive. One may argue that food is cheaper and stuff but I beg to differ so. Yes, eating at restaurants are cheap compared to US but buying food from the supermarket are really expensive. Case in point is a pint of Haagen Daz costs RM30.90. In US the price is 3.50 (this price is incredibly marked up. Typically it costs around 3 dollars). You don't need to be good in maths to realize how much we're over paying for stuff. Granted this is luxury items, there are many other stuff like sphagetti and stuff which I do not consider as luxury food items and yet they're really expensive.
Let's get to transportation. There's no need to go through the fact that we're overpaying for a car. The government loves to tell us that they're subsidizing our petrol. Lately they had reduced it to a mere RM0.30/litre which is peanuts as 30 cents can do jack in RM currency. Nevermind about that, lets take the current price of oil per barrel. From oil-price.net, the price per barrel is at USD64.60. Let's overprice our USD and set it at 1USD = RM3.60, which at USD64.60 = RM232.56. A barrel of oil equals to 117.35 litres. So RM232.56 divided by the 117.35 litres would come out to about RM1.98 per litre. Minus another 30 cents subsidy that is supposedly given to us would amount to RM1.68 per litre. Right now for those who are living in Malaysia we all know that we're paying RM2.30 per litre. So aren't we like overpaying our petrol by over 30 cents?
Let's get to transportation. There's no need to go through the fact that we're overpaying for a car. The government loves to tell us that they're subsidizing our petrol. Lately they had reduced it to a mere RM0.30/litre which is peanuts as 30 cents can do jack in RM currency. Nevermind about that, lets take the current price of oil per barrel. From oil-price.net, the price per barrel is at USD64.60. Let's overprice our USD and set it at 1USD = RM3.60, which at USD64.60 = RM232.56. A barrel of oil equals to 117.35 litres. So RM232.56 divided by the 117.35 litres would come out to about RM1.98 per litre. Minus another 30 cents subsidy that is supposedly given to us would amount to RM1.68 per litre. Right now for those who are living in Malaysia we all know that we're paying RM2.30 per litre. So aren't we like overpaying our petrol by over 30 cents?
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Parking at IKEA for only 85 cents. How?
You know if you go to IKEA in Damansara Perdana, you can get free parking at the IKEANO power center with any purchase from IKEA. This means you can buy anything and still be able to get the free parking.
I guess you all would know where this is heading to. Just go buy the cheapest stuff that you can ever buy from IKEA and then get the free parking. The cheapest thing I found so far was a mug that is priced at 85 cents. So just go buy that mug and then get the free parking. This deal is even sweeter during the weekends as it is 2 dollars for the first 3 hours as opposed to a dollar for the first 3 hours.
So even if you wanna go to The Curve, I suggest parking there not only because of the free parking but also it is more expensive and their parking system is confusing. Just remember don't do it too often as they might find out we're abusing the system. Wahahaha kiasuness......
I guess you all would know where this is heading to. Just go buy the cheapest stuff that you can ever buy from IKEA and then get the free parking. The cheapest thing I found so far was a mug that is priced at 85 cents. So just go buy that mug and then get the free parking. This deal is even sweeter during the weekends as it is 2 dollars for the first 3 hours as opposed to a dollar for the first 3 hours.
So even if you wanna go to The Curve, I suggest parking there not only because of the free parking but also it is more expensive and their parking system is confusing. Just remember don't do it too often as they might find out we're abusing the system. Wahahaha kiasuness......
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
British Movies
Recently I watched a show titled Flashbacks of a Fool starring Daniel Craig, you know the guy who is playing the latest James Bond. This movie along with other British makes are quite pleasing to watch as those movies give you a sense of nostalgia, which is very rare in a testosterone charged full of violence and sex scenes hollywood movies. Not that Flashbacks of a Fool doesn't have those, its just that somehow the British does it in a classy style, not skanky.
Anywayz, while watching this movie, there this hot chick which as usual I would go crazy over her. Her name is Felicity Jones and she's one year older than me. Unlike my usual liking of blonde hair blue eyes, she is a brunette.
Oh well, the point I'm trying to make here is that you all should try British make movies once in a while. Come to think of it, I seem to have more preference towards non-hollywood movies as they have some originality in it. Hollywood movies has become very generic as of lately. Go and watch them and tell me what you think.
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
The New BMW 7-series
Has anyone seen the new BMW 7-series? And I thought the the previous generation 7-series was an absolute disaster. A picture is worth a thousand words. So let me show you two-thousand words worth of pictures.
'I'm a little piggy here's my snout, oink oink oink, oink oink oink."
The back is likened to a tumor that has been festering on the tail lamp. If they had made the tail lamp a sleek line across then it would be much nicer. Even the 3 series tail-lamp look like a down syndrome kid with cock eyes. Its a wonder if the BMW is still a desirable automobile.
'I'm a little piggy here's my snout, oink oink oink, oink oink oink."
The back is likened to a tumor that has been festering on the tail lamp. If they had made the tail lamp a sleek line across then it would be much nicer. Even the 3 series tail-lamp look like a down syndrome kid with cock eyes. Its a wonder if the BMW is still a desirable automobile.
Monday, September 8, 2008
Speechless.....
I'm sure you Malaysians out there would know about the Ahmad Ismail's remarks upon the Chinese Malaysians. In this day of age, I'm appalled and shocked to find that this kind of remarks can still be shouted out in Malaysia. Shall he does this in western countries he would be F'ed in the A so hard that even Saiful would pity him.
Ok lets get to the facts shall we. Fine, Ismail wanna bring out as us Chinese Malaysians being 'squatters' to Malaysia, how about you Malays? Lest not forget that your Parameswara was a damn immigrant that went to Temasik (Singapore) and killed the leader there. So it is safe to assume that not only the Malays are squatters in line with the Chinese but also a senseless cruel murderer.
Still talking about facts; Malays might be the majority in terms of population numbers, but lets get real. In this day of age a country is pretty much defined by its financial status. The Chinese, being the squatters are contributing over 80% of tax revenues to the government, which most of it falls into their cronies and 'Malay development'. So you tell me, do you really think that us Chinese Malaysians, given the choice would want to continue staying in Malaysia? Why would you think scores of people are running away from this country? Even the educated Malays who are not blinded by the political screen?
Ok lets get to the facts shall we. Fine, Ismail wanna bring out as us Chinese Malaysians being 'squatters' to Malaysia, how about you Malays? Lest not forget that your Parameswara was a damn immigrant that went to Temasik (Singapore) and killed the leader there. So it is safe to assume that not only the Malays are squatters in line with the Chinese but also a senseless cruel murderer.
Still talking about facts; Malays might be the majority in terms of population numbers, but lets get real. In this day of age a country is pretty much defined by its financial status. The Chinese, being the squatters are contributing over 80% of tax revenues to the government, which most of it falls into their cronies and 'Malay development'. So you tell me, do you really think that us Chinese Malaysians, given the choice would want to continue staying in Malaysia? Why would you think scores of people are running away from this country? Even the educated Malays who are not blinded by the political screen?
Thursday, September 4, 2008
An apocalypse
It is wierd. After spending almost 20 years of his life in his home country, he suddenly feels alienated. Systems that are unfathomable, life that is questionable, he plows through the day. While last time he sleeps late into the night after a nice outing with friends, now he is withdrawn. He now goes to bed early in hope of a better day tomorrow, which often enough turns out worse than before.
Frustration mounts inside him, he doesn't even know why. Soon depression creeps in, again he doesn't know why. While skies are blue as ever, his eyes sees gloomy depressing skies. Living in denial, he tries to sleep it off only to find his life getting darker and darker. He even wonders if the sun ever shines.
'I need to get out of this hole' he says. He feels as thought he's trapped. Don't ask him why he just feels so. He thought things would be better when he comes home but then he soon realized all of his friends has left their home. One by one, slowly all went away, leaving him here all alone.
Perhaps there would be better days. He should be positive and hope for the better. He should look for alternatives if his home is less desirable as he thought it would be. Above it all, he should try and get over it.
Frustration mounts inside him, he doesn't even know why. Soon depression creeps in, again he doesn't know why. While skies are blue as ever, his eyes sees gloomy depressing skies. Living in denial, he tries to sleep it off only to find his life getting darker and darker. He even wonders if the sun ever shines.
'I need to get out of this hole' he says. He feels as thought he's trapped. Don't ask him why he just feels so. He thought things would be better when he comes home but then he soon realized all of his friends has left their home. One by one, slowly all went away, leaving him here all alone.
Perhaps there would be better days. He should be positive and hope for the better. He should look for alternatives if his home is less desirable as he thought it would be. Above it all, he should try and get over it.
Thursday, August 28, 2008
Clémence Poésy
To those very few whom I've been talking to lately, you would know who is this girl. Right now this lady is the only reason why I feel like jumping on a plane and fly off to France to look for her. But anyways, as with most French words, her name is pronounced as clema pozei, if this actually gives a more accurate pronounciation.
It was in one of the random movies that I had when I first got to know about her. The name of the movie is In Bruges, which talks about two murderers and she plays as a drug dealer. Damn if all drug dealers are this hot I would become a drug dealer myself as well haha! After cyber-stalking her i get to know that she plays as Fleur Delacour in the 4th installment of the Harry Potter movie. She is also a model and currently one of the spokesmodel of a fragrance called Chloe, which incidently the name of her character in In Bruges.
I recommend you all to go watch In Bruges although I must warn you it has an artsy wierdy kind of theme going on. It's not your typical hollywood jock chick flick that you ever so often find on movies. It can get quite boring as it doesn't really have a solid storyline behind it, which revolves around a vague romance between one of the murderers and Chloe.
One of the scenes in In Bruges
This is Clemence in the Harry Potter as Fleur Delacour
And this is one of my favorite pictures of her. *slurp! haha
Till then.........
It was in one of the random movies that I had when I first got to know about her. The name of the movie is In Bruges, which talks about two murderers and she plays as a drug dealer. Damn if all drug dealers are this hot I would become a drug dealer myself as well haha! After cyber-stalking her i get to know that she plays as Fleur Delacour in the 4th installment of the Harry Potter movie. She is also a model and currently one of the spokesmodel of a fragrance called Chloe, which incidently the name of her character in In Bruges.
I recommend you all to go watch In Bruges although I must warn you it has an artsy wierdy kind of theme going on. It's not your typical hollywood jock chick flick that you ever so often find on movies. It can get quite boring as it doesn't really have a solid storyline behind it, which revolves around a vague romance between one of the murderers and Chloe.
One of the scenes in In Bruges
This is Clemence in the Harry Potter as Fleur Delacour
And this is one of my favorite pictures of her. *slurp! haha
Till then.........
The thought of it
I'm gonna be back in Malaysia in 2 days time. Knowing myself I can say I won't be back in US for quite sometime although I might leave some remnants of my existance in the US.
Been talking to my friends about life in Malaysia in general. In most it is of negative perceptions and one of my friends told me to forget about the air ticket and just stay back as it could well be the best 900USD spent. I have a friend who told me that Malaysia is changing because Anwar won the election. My opinion that if you think Malaysia is changing for the better you're disillusional as it takes a least a generation (20-30 years) to have some noticeable changes as a whole. Being partially Americanized & impatient I want things instantaneously, which is of a rare occurance in Malaysia. To buy a car in Malaysia is a week long affair. When I sold my car about a week ago, it took just 4-5 hours to take a look at the car, apply the loan, driving up and down to cash in the check, buy insurance and register the car. Even a bloody loan can be approved within seconds. Just to show that Malaysia has serious efficiency problems.
Another thing would be that I'm so used to the US system. I know how to register my car, renew the license plates, buy insurance, open a bank account, apply for social security etc etc. I remember back in the good old days when my mom was still driving the Kancil paying just a freaking bill would take an hour. Paying everything would be a day long affair. As nothing could be done online, it is a serious chore running here and there wasting precious time, petrol and money just to get things around in Malaysia.
But before you all think this is another rant of me stepping back to third world country, you are wrong. As much as I try to stay away from Malaysia, I cannot hide the fact that I'm excited to go back. Maybe it is because I'm bored out of my wits waiting to go back, but I cannot deny the fact that after being in Malaysia for over 20 years, I can't help but feel at home with my parents and having a sense of familiarity around. And after staying in different countries of different cultures, I come to realize that each society has its postives and their drawbacks. I can't change the fact that I'm going back, so I might as well stay positive and look forward to things that will come. Life is too short to dwell on the negativity, and so I shall stay positive no matter what.
..............who the hell am I kidding? OMFG, I'M GOING BACK TO MALAYSIA! FUCK ME!!!!!!!
Been talking to my friends about life in Malaysia in general. In most it is of negative perceptions and one of my friends told me to forget about the air ticket and just stay back as it could well be the best 900USD spent. I have a friend who told me that Malaysia is changing because Anwar won the election. My opinion that if you think Malaysia is changing for the better you're disillusional as it takes a least a generation (20-30 years) to have some noticeable changes as a whole. Being partially Americanized & impatient I want things instantaneously, which is of a rare occurance in Malaysia. To buy a car in Malaysia is a week long affair. When I sold my car about a week ago, it took just 4-5 hours to take a look at the car, apply the loan, driving up and down to cash in the check, buy insurance and register the car. Even a bloody loan can be approved within seconds. Just to show that Malaysia has serious efficiency problems.
Another thing would be that I'm so used to the US system. I know how to register my car, renew the license plates, buy insurance, open a bank account, apply for social security etc etc. I remember back in the good old days when my mom was still driving the Kancil paying just a freaking bill would take an hour. Paying everything would be a day long affair. As nothing could be done online, it is a serious chore running here and there wasting precious time, petrol and money just to get things around in Malaysia.
But before you all think this is another rant of me stepping back to third world country, you are wrong. As much as I try to stay away from Malaysia, I cannot hide the fact that I'm excited to go back. Maybe it is because I'm bored out of my wits waiting to go back, but I cannot deny the fact that after being in Malaysia for over 20 years, I can't help but feel at home with my parents and having a sense of familiarity around. And after staying in different countries of different cultures, I come to realize that each society has its postives and their drawbacks. I can't change the fact that I'm going back, so I might as well stay positive and look forward to things that will come. Life is too short to dwell on the negativity, and so I shall stay positive no matter what.
..............who the hell am I kidding? OMFG, I'M GOING BACK TO MALAYSIA! FUCK ME!!!!!!!
Friday, August 22, 2008
Everything's Gone!
I was awaken by a call this morning. The night before there's this girl who e-mailed me about my car. I told she could see the car tomorrow and therefore the call. At first I was not expecting a sale of the car as I had so many close encounters of selling the car. Actually it was two person one which was too picky about the fact that a 9 year old car doesn't look brand new and costs only 5000USD. The other one was some Indonesian student who told me to hold on to the car till he finish his finals only to delay it by saying he wants his friend to check the car. He or the friend never showed up and calling him a couple of times he refused to pick up his phone and never called back after leaving him a voicemail asking him whether he wants the car or not. You see this is why sometimes I hate Asians, no offence really.
But this time was different. Not only that it was the only girl who was interested in the car but this sweet looking girl with sky blue eyes showed up with her whole family. As I was only awake for about 5 minutes I was dazed and just stoned while letting the family have a look at the car. She told me then that she'll be applying for a loan to get the car and then left. I thought an application of the loan would take a few days but I was surprised that at the end of the day the title was handed over and the check cashed in.
Sigh, so now I'm left with no car which is a big thing for me as taking away my car is akin to throwing me in jail. As though it couldn't get any worse, my phone line is officially dead as I disconnected it a tad bit too early before heading back to Malaysia. So I've lost my communication and my transportation, although i'm like 5k richer.
Oh and that brings me to the fact that I'm going back to Malaysia. The time has finally come. Me and my friend booked our ticket a few days earlier and we were staring at each other coming to the realization that we would have to go back to the oppressed, surpressed, racialistic, analistic, chaotic and smelly little country. We fought for like eternity on asking who should go buy the ticket first. In the end we both took our laptops and book it together with sombre silence.
Ok I know I'm like over reacting to this and stuff, but I can so imagine being helpless in Malaysia. For one I used to do everything online; banking, information, finding stuff and so on. Another thing would be that I couldn't just key in an address and let the wonders of the GPS do the work for me. I know there is a Malaysian map but it's pretty inaccurate and stuff. Sigh, I guess coming back to third world country from a develop country takes some getting used to.
But this time was different. Not only that it was the only girl who was interested in the car but this sweet looking girl with sky blue eyes showed up with her whole family. As I was only awake for about 5 minutes I was dazed and just stoned while letting the family have a look at the car. She told me then that she'll be applying for a loan to get the car and then left. I thought an application of the loan would take a few days but I was surprised that at the end of the day the title was handed over and the check cashed in.
Sigh, so now I'm left with no car which is a big thing for me as taking away my car is akin to throwing me in jail. As though it couldn't get any worse, my phone line is officially dead as I disconnected it a tad bit too early before heading back to Malaysia. So I've lost my communication and my transportation, although i'm like 5k richer.
Oh and that brings me to the fact that I'm going back to Malaysia. The time has finally come. Me and my friend booked our ticket a few days earlier and we were staring at each other coming to the realization that we would have to go back to the oppressed, surpressed, racialistic, analistic, chaotic and smelly little country. We fought for like eternity on asking who should go buy the ticket first. In the end we both took our laptops and book it together with sombre silence.
Ok I know I'm like over reacting to this and stuff, but I can so imagine being helpless in Malaysia. For one I used to do everything online; banking, information, finding stuff and so on. Another thing would be that I couldn't just key in an address and let the wonders of the GPS do the work for me. I know there is a Malaysian map but it's pretty inaccurate and stuff. Sigh, I guess coming back to third world country from a develop country takes some getting used to.
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Mistaken Identity
I know I might be a few days late watching the Olympics opening but I'm wondering if anyone actually watched the opening on BBC (British Broadcast Channel). You know when they had the parade of the athletes, and it was Malaysia's turn to parade.
Now the funny thing was that the commentator said that there is about 6 million ethnic chinese in Malaysia and then proceeds to talk about Lee Kuan Yew, one of the most influential leaders in the country and also implementing controversial governmental policies. Wait a minute, isn't Lee Kuan Yew the leader of Singapore?
It then makes me wonder, what if Lee Kuan Yew really was the leader of Malaysia? I really feel that things would be much more different in a positive way.
Now the funny thing was that the commentator said that there is about 6 million ethnic chinese in Malaysia and then proceeds to talk about Lee Kuan Yew, one of the most influential leaders in the country and also implementing controversial governmental policies. Wait a minute, isn't Lee Kuan Yew the leader of Singapore?
It then makes me wonder, what if Lee Kuan Yew really was the leader of Malaysia? I really feel that things would be much more different in a positive way.
Thursday, August 7, 2008
Isn't it Ironic?
If anyone is watching CNN news lately, I think they would know what I mean when I say CNN news is seriously biased. I had always thought CNN is neutral upon reporting news and such but lately I am having serious doubts about it.
I'm sure by now you would asking why I would say that. For starters, the focus upon Beijing olympics is by most a negative one. They focused upon how bad the air pollution is in Beijing. And then they talked about how the Chinese government are bugging the hotels and taxis that enable them to listen to what they have to say. Furthermore, they have been reporting about how this Chinese kids are being sent to some special training center where they're being trained but the way CNN puts it is as though they're being tortured. That and I haven't even touched about attempts to sabotage China by reporting inferior products and the conflict with Tibet.
Seriously, they're talking as though the good 'ol USA is so totally clean with dandy sunflowers growing everywhere and blue skies looming all over. US citizens has the largest carbon footprint compared to any other people in the world. Furthermore, they're also the most polluted industrialized nation in the world, even when they dump most of their toxic waste to other countries and then crying out pollution on them. Talking about bugging hotels and taxis with microphones and cameras, in London there's a camera in every street corner. In the USA, they have an Executive Order in which the government could tap into your bank account and even listen to your cellphone conversations, although they try to justify it by saying they only do it when they have enough evidence to show that you have some linkage to Al-Qaeda or some islamic extremists.
And here comes the most ironic part. USA has been talking crap about how all this hazardous products that doesn't meet the safety requirements etc etc. When they attempt to punish those companies who were manufacturing these stuff, they shot themselves in the foot when those violating companies are based in the good 'ol US of A.
I'm sure by now you would asking why I would say that. For starters, the focus upon Beijing olympics is by most a negative one. They focused upon how bad the air pollution is in Beijing. And then they talked about how the Chinese government are bugging the hotels and taxis that enable them to listen to what they have to say. Furthermore, they have been reporting about how this Chinese kids are being sent to some special training center where they're being trained but the way CNN puts it is as though they're being tortured. That and I haven't even touched about attempts to sabotage China by reporting inferior products and the conflict with Tibet.
Seriously, they're talking as though the good 'ol USA is so totally clean with dandy sunflowers growing everywhere and blue skies looming all over. US citizens has the largest carbon footprint compared to any other people in the world. Furthermore, they're also the most polluted industrialized nation in the world, even when they dump most of their toxic waste to other countries and then crying out pollution on them. Talking about bugging hotels and taxis with microphones and cameras, in London there's a camera in every street corner. In the USA, they have an Executive Order in which the government could tap into your bank account and even listen to your cellphone conversations, although they try to justify it by saying they only do it when they have enough evidence to show that you have some linkage to Al-Qaeda or some islamic extremists.
And here comes the most ironic part. USA has been talking crap about how all this hazardous products that doesn't meet the safety requirements etc etc. When they attempt to punish those companies who were manufacturing these stuff, they shot themselves in the foot when those violating companies are based in the good 'ol US of A.
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Eat Less, Move More
It's so typical of big-bodied (more like humoungously huge bodied) people who can be bothered doing anything.
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
When the boredom stops
Oh well, yesterday I went to Chicago. Unlike every other time where I go to Chicago and lepak, I went to Joliet, around 50 miles south west of Chicago to go for this Audi Driving Experience. I enrolled for this program about 5 months ago and totally forgot about it till this e-mail reminder told me about it.
I was hesitant to go there at first, but since Chloe, one of my friends was in Chicago I decided to kill two birds with one stone. So there I went and my first impression was that the track was in a really secluded area. I did not manage to take a lot of pictures as I was too gila over the cars.
I did a few laps around the track with a partner of mine. His name was Vince I think and coincidentally he graduated from Western Michigan as well, although he's in the class of '85. Anywayz, I had a short clip of around the track.
And I also manage to sit inside an R8 as well. You know about how supercars are like so exclusive and that you can even touch it. Naturally you would wanna get into a supercar and be in awe of the surroundings. Trust me, once I sat inside the R8 it was a bit disappointing cause it's very simple. I mean supercars are all about performance so nothing great inside the car.
Here's the engine of the car
After that I head to Chicago and met up with Chloe and her other friends. Chloe and myself hang around the Millenium park for a few hours catching up with each other before going to an italian restaurant to have dinner. Damn it I forgot what's the name of the restaurant already.
Chloe & Me (yes me fatty fat with trillion chin)
yummy yummy food.
Actually the food is ok-la, but then actually I can also cook that as well. Haha I've been practicing my spaghetti cooking skills for a few days already. Since it's already dinner time, I might just start cooking now till then bye bye!
I was hesitant to go there at first, but since Chloe, one of my friends was in Chicago I decided to kill two birds with one stone. So there I went and my first impression was that the track was in a really secluded area. I did not manage to take a lot of pictures as I was too gila over the cars.
I did a few laps around the track with a partner of mine. His name was Vince I think and coincidentally he graduated from Western Michigan as well, although he's in the class of '85. Anywayz, I had a short clip of around the track.
And I also manage to sit inside an R8 as well. You know about how supercars are like so exclusive and that you can even touch it. Naturally you would wanna get into a supercar and be in awe of the surroundings. Trust me, once I sat inside the R8 it was a bit disappointing cause it's very simple. I mean supercars are all about performance so nothing great inside the car.
Here's the engine of the car
After that I head to Chicago and met up with Chloe and her other friends. Chloe and myself hang around the Millenium park for a few hours catching up with each other before going to an italian restaurant to have dinner. Damn it I forgot what's the name of the restaurant already.
Chloe & Me (yes me fatty fat with trillion chin)
yummy yummy food.
Actually the food is ok-la, but then actually I can also cook that as well. Haha I've been practicing my spaghetti cooking skills for a few days already. Since it's already dinner time, I might just start cooking now till then bye bye!
Saturday, July 12, 2008
Nothing much.....
Hi people. It's been a while and there's nothing much to say here anywayz. Job hunting here is a nightmare and it is looking as though that I have to go back to Malaysia. Sigh......
Well, I guess it wouldn't be a bad thing to be discriminated and at the same time have 3rd world country salary. My friend who is in the same situation as me was saying that if we go back we'll go tour around Malaysia for some nice food and yes I know i'm very fat now. Oh well, after driving around in US for almost 2 years, driving around in Malaysia is a breeze in terms of distance travelled. I remember last time when travelling from KL to Ipoh I was grumbling at the 2 hour journey. Over here in US 2 hours drive is like a drive from PJ to KL.
So i really not sure what is in store for me in KL. While having a couple of beers with my friend we were arguing over whether US or Malaysia is better. He was saying in Malaysia it's easier to earn a living as opposed to US, where you have to pay alot of taxes etc. Anywayz, we never really reach an agreement but do agree upon the fact that US is good for making money and finding opportunities.
Oh well, nothing much to say already. I think I have to start thinking about getting rid of my stuff here. The only thing that I'm worried about is my car, and then getting my savings out of the bank which could take a couple of days. Till then I would keep you all updated on any other interesting things that I might stumble upon. Byez
Well, I guess it wouldn't be a bad thing to be discriminated and at the same time have 3rd world country salary. My friend who is in the same situation as me was saying that if we go back we'll go tour around Malaysia for some nice food and yes I know i'm very fat now. Oh well, after driving around in US for almost 2 years, driving around in Malaysia is a breeze in terms of distance travelled. I remember last time when travelling from KL to Ipoh I was grumbling at the 2 hour journey. Over here in US 2 hours drive is like a drive from PJ to KL.
So i really not sure what is in store for me in KL. While having a couple of beers with my friend we were arguing over whether US or Malaysia is better. He was saying in Malaysia it's easier to earn a living as opposed to US, where you have to pay alot of taxes etc. Anywayz, we never really reach an agreement but do agree upon the fact that US is good for making money and finding opportunities.
Oh well, nothing much to say already. I think I have to start thinking about getting rid of my stuff here. The only thing that I'm worried about is my car, and then getting my savings out of the bank which could take a couple of days. Till then I would keep you all updated on any other interesting things that I might stumble upon. Byez
Sunday, June 29, 2008
Saving Petrol/Gas
In the event of recent soaring gas prices, people are complaining how expensive they are. They can complain all they want until the cows come home, get slaughtered and eaten and still one can't control the prices, as the OPEC bastards are the one controlling the supply. So instead of doing that, there is a few ways you could save petrol.
1. Consider the car you're buying - Please do not be confused by the whole notion of people switching to a Prius just to save gas. It only when you are thinking of buying a new car that this option is viable. If you're thinking of just saving fuel, Prius is NOT the cheapest car in the long run. A diesel can achieve just about the same mileage and you don't have to contend with the battery change as your hybrid battery loses its charge. It typically cost about 6000USD just to change the batteries, which will counter your gas savings. If you really wanna be a hippie and own a hybrid, get a brand new one with a warranty.
Die hippie Prius!
2. Maintain your car properly - This includes changing spark plugs, air filters, fuel filters etc etc. If you're not sure what to do, go get a trusted mechanic to do the changes for you. It might cost quite a bit but in the long run a car that can runs properly would not only get more mileage from your black gold, but also potentially save you from expensive repairs due to excessive wear and tear.
3. The way you drive - This is the single most important factor of your MPG. You could potentially save up to 33% just by changing the way you drive. Some people think driving frugally amounts to driving like a grandma travelling 5mph. All you have to do is to follow the speed limit. In the US, traffic signals are design in such a way that if you drive within the speed limit you can drive through traffic signals without succumbing to a red light. Another way is to drive as though you don't have brakes. There are many ways of saving gas by driving properly, although there are technics that could be quite dangerous. For example inflating your tires over the recommended tire pressure and also drafting behind a semi. If you wanna learn more, go to http://www.cleanmpg.com/
There are like many ways that you can save gas. But usually the most effective way is simply to use common sense. So stop complaining and start acting upon the way you drive.
1. Consider the car you're buying - Please do not be confused by the whole notion of people switching to a Prius just to save gas. It only when you are thinking of buying a new car that this option is viable. If you're thinking of just saving fuel, Prius is NOT the cheapest car in the long run. A diesel can achieve just about the same mileage and you don't have to contend with the battery change as your hybrid battery loses its charge. It typically cost about 6000USD just to change the batteries, which will counter your gas savings. If you really wanna be a hippie and own a hybrid, get a brand new one with a warranty.
Die hippie Prius!
2. Maintain your car properly - This includes changing spark plugs, air filters, fuel filters etc etc. If you're not sure what to do, go get a trusted mechanic to do the changes for you. It might cost quite a bit but in the long run a car that can runs properly would not only get more mileage from your black gold, but also potentially save you from expensive repairs due to excessive wear and tear.
3. The way you drive - This is the single most important factor of your MPG. You could potentially save up to 33% just by changing the way you drive. Some people think driving frugally amounts to driving like a grandma travelling 5mph. All you have to do is to follow the speed limit. In the US, traffic signals are design in such a way that if you drive within the speed limit you can drive through traffic signals without succumbing to a red light. Another way is to drive as though you don't have brakes. There are many ways of saving gas by driving properly, although there are technics that could be quite dangerous. For example inflating your tires over the recommended tire pressure and also drafting behind a semi. If you wanna learn more, go to http://www.cleanmpg.com/
There are like many ways that you can save gas. But usually the most effective way is simply to use common sense. So stop complaining and start acting upon the way you drive.
Monday, June 23, 2008
Random-ness
It's been a week since I came back from California. Somehow rather everytime I go there, I always have a different outtake of life in a positive way. I heard from a person that of all the places he has been in US, California, specifically San Diego is one of the best places to be. Somehow rather I couldn't agree more.
The days in Michigan on the other hand is much longer now. Below is a few pictures that I've taken at about 9 something a night.
Other than that, I'm still trying to find job, trying to run abit to lose weight. There was a research that thin people has a 28% advantage over fat people to succeed in life. I think the reason is that a healthy body is a healthy mind. It also shows how committed you are as well. If you can't even take care of yourself, how are you supposed to take care of your jobs and other commitments?
The days in Michigan on the other hand is much longer now. Below is a few pictures that I've taken at about 9 something a night.
Other than that, I'm still trying to find job, trying to run abit to lose weight. There was a research that thin people has a 28% advantage over fat people to succeed in life. I think the reason is that a healthy body is a healthy mind. It also shows how committed you are as well. If you can't even take care of yourself, how are you supposed to take care of your jobs and other commitments?
Saturday, June 14, 2008
'That' Commercial
Just in case you guys were wondering which song of the Viagra commercial is, here it is. The last few seconds of the video
So now your head can get stuck to that tune and sing it in public.
So now your head can get stuck to that tune and sing it in public.
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
Effects of advertising
Spending time watching tv would inevitably lead to you being exposed to advertisement. Most of the time an hour long tv show is only 40 minutes with 20 minutes of advertisement, which means you waste about a third of your tv time watching advertisements.
Well, you know how advertisements are designed to attract your attention, whether ethical or not. For example they can include a sexy hot chick, which works like 100% of the time to men unless they're gay. Other ways include gory images, violence, or even some catchy song.
Lately it seems there is a lot of impotent people around. Or maybe it's because it's the Viagra's 10th anniversary. Time really passes by fast, it was like only yesterday when I was joking with my friends in high school about viagra. Anywayz, they have this catchy song that they always sing whenever every freaking advertisement about viagra is aired. After long exposure to it, I found myself being hooked on to that catchy little song.
So on one fine day I was in a cafe minding my own business. I guess I was in some mind spasm mode as I had thoughts running around my head. Somehow suddenly out of nowhere this stupid viagra song come into my mind. Being in my own worldly state I did not realize that I was in a public place and like having a life on its own my mouth sang " Vivaaaaaaaaa. vivaaaaaa, viAGRAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!"
A few seconds later was one of the most wtf and embarassing moments in my life. As though being an Asian isn't outstanding enough, now I'm pretty sure that they must be thinking that this mad Asian is in need of not only some erectyle disfunction treatment but also a psychological treatment. Sigh, I think I should stop watching movies on tv. It's all your fault!!!!
Well, you know how advertisements are designed to attract your attention, whether ethical or not. For example they can include a sexy hot chick, which works like 100% of the time to men unless they're gay. Other ways include gory images, violence, or even some catchy song.
Lately it seems there is a lot of impotent people around. Or maybe it's because it's the Viagra's 10th anniversary. Time really passes by fast, it was like only yesterday when I was joking with my friends in high school about viagra. Anywayz, they have this catchy song that they always sing whenever every freaking advertisement about viagra is aired. After long exposure to it, I found myself being hooked on to that catchy little song.
So on one fine day I was in a cafe minding my own business. I guess I was in some mind spasm mode as I had thoughts running around my head. Somehow suddenly out of nowhere this stupid viagra song come into my mind. Being in my own worldly state I did not realize that I was in a public place and like having a life on its own my mouth sang " Vivaaaaaaaaa. vivaaaaaa, viAGRAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!"
A few seconds later was one of the most wtf and embarassing moments in my life. As though being an Asian isn't outstanding enough, now I'm pretty sure that they must be thinking that this mad Asian is in need of not only some erectyle disfunction treatment but also a psychological treatment. Sigh, I think I should stop watching movies on tv. It's all your fault!!!!
Sunday, June 8, 2008
Life in the San Diego, CA
I pretty like the life in San Diego. I mean from where I come from, it's safe to say that anywhere in the US is better than where I am now. Anywayz, I think I'll let the pictures do the talking here. Thanks to Qi Lian for pointing it out that I've never posted pictures for quite some time.
Finally after how many freaking years of studying, I've graduated. Am now officially a bum and begging for a job. Many thanks to my parents where without them I won't be where I am today, literally hehe.
Me in Detroit, MI. GM building at the back. The place is really deserted and the streets were empty on a Monday lunch hour.
Me and my mom in Chicago
Bye bye to my house and my car. Don't think I'm gonna keep the car for long.
Finally after how many freaking years of studying, I've graduated. Am now officially a bum and begging for a job. Many thanks to my parents where without them I won't be where I am today, literally hehe.Me in Detroit, MI. GM building at the back. The place is really deserted and the streets were empty on a Monday lunch hour.Me and my mom in Chicago
Oh, I became an uncle again. This is my sister's second baby daughter Justine. Erm not sure how to spell her name in chinese, but her Chinese name sounds like 'crazy' in Cantonese. Ehehe that's how I remember her Chinese name.
That's me cooking up a fire for the BBQ. I think it was pork ribs and some grilled vegetables, where obviously I didn't touch the vegetables at all.
Erm and I still have another week left in San Diego. Gonna look for a job and if I could find one here that means goodbye to my life in Kalamazoo. Although I always complain that it's boring and stuff, It is actually one of my important chapters of life.
Bye bye to my house and my car. Don't think I'm gonna keep the car for long.
Thursday, May 29, 2008
All in a flash
I expected this morning to be a usual morning when I was awaken by my parents phone call. They then subsequently told me to hurrily book a ticket to California because they wanted the whole family to be there. In fact our whole extended family including my in-laws are there as well. As I was still reeling from my sleepiness, I was like 'huh? California? Sounds nice. Book ticket now-ar? Em, em, ok ok I'll book now.'
Zombiely I then bring out my credit card, book the ticket and gave my parents and extra 450USD bill and then it suddenly hit me. Damn I'm going to California! I had so many errands that I have to run because of that. Now I understand why my mom is so worried when going off for holidays. Had to settle electricity bill, rent, call my mom's friend if I could crash over at her place and then gas up my car and head over to Chicago.
Although I should be sleeping now for my 8am flight, I'm so freaking excited as I would be seeing my nieces. Yes my sister gave birth again to a baby girl. I think this is the once in a lifetime thingy to see a one day old baby tomorrow. Can't wait. Till then love ya guys.
Zombiely I then bring out my credit card, book the ticket and gave my parents and extra 450USD bill and then it suddenly hit me. Damn I'm going to California! I had so many errands that I have to run because of that. Now I understand why my mom is so worried when going off for holidays. Had to settle electricity bill, rent, call my mom's friend if I could crash over at her place and then gas up my car and head over to Chicago.
Although I should be sleeping now for my 8am flight, I'm so freaking excited as I would be seeing my nieces. Yes my sister gave birth again to a baby girl. I think this is the once in a lifetime thingy to see a one day old baby tomorrow. Can't wait. Till then love ya guys.
Sunday, May 25, 2008
Winning the lottery
He just stood there stonecold. Just minutes ago, Dan was the winner of the Mega Millions lottery which is worth at about 135million dollars. Not knowing what to do, he just stood there and then subsequently fainted.
Well, I'm pretty sure it's everybody's dream. I mean who the hell minds having an extra couple of hundred millions at your disposal? Hell I can make do with a couple of millions right now. I'm pretty sure everyone who actually play lotteries would have that 'to buy list when I strike rich'. Suddenly everything seems to be more plesant. Even the skies are bluer than ever.
Here's an interesting anecdote. Almost 80% of lottery winners end up back where they were financially before they won the lottery. Not only that, they usually end up with more debts, broken families and also trust issues with almost anyone else. I can so imagine if I did win the lottery my long lost brother from Kenya would suddenly show up to claim his share of that money. People would flock to you like you're the sugar central for ants.
Come to think of it, having large sums of money is not necessarily a good thing as everyone thought to be. However, there are a few stuff that one can do to avoid all the negativity related to your lottery winnings. For one, just don't tell anyone(especially your wife!!!! haha), even if you have the best intentions of sharing your wealth. If everyone knows about your wealth, you wouldn't know who would be your true friends are. Hell, even right now I've been taken advantage financially, imagine all the gold diggers when you're worth hundreds of millions.
Second thing would be to hire a financial advisor. In fact, this should be the very first thing you should do when you strike the gold. Having a person who are professional in handling funds ensures that you wouldn't get burned out. This should be the upmost priority, and would be the best investment you'd ever made. Of course, go make some investments on your own cause money would run out one day. Just ask the 80% of the lottery winners.
Thirdly, don't attract unwanted attention by flashing around. This is not to create jealousy and hate from other people. Just face it, people are jealous especially when the money you have literally fall from the sky. Everyone would of course would want the money as they think you don't deserve it and you driving your Lambo around doesn't ease their jealousy. So keep a low key life. Difficult I know as I would really love rubbing my Lambos against my other nemesis but remember, as cliche as it sounds with vast money comes great responsibility. The other benefit of not flashing around is that you do not waste your money on unecessary things, stretching your hard earned money to the limit.
Another thing which is related to the third thing is that to live a normal life. Your mentality is very important here and is that you want to live a normal life, not because you're worried of the consequences. Often enough happiness is a state of mind, not by the amount of zeros in your bank account. One must understand that extra wealth does not bring infinite happiness but rather just eases the worry of money. Go do the things you've always wanted like maybe travel around the world, fulfilling meaningful dreams.
Last but not least, donate a certain amount of money to charity, SINCERELY! I know alot of people donate large sums of money to charity because of tax benefits but that's a different story. Again sincerity is the key here. Don't underestimate karma as you would be surprised if you do. Do remember that in truth your money IS literally fallen from the sky into your hands, so go do something beneficial to the world.
I watched a show where her father comes to her talking about how foolish of her paying so much money buying those collectors cards and say they're essentially just paper. Her daughter then say 'Well then I don't understand why adults get so worked out over money. It's also paper right daddy?' Her father than couldn't say anything.
Well, I'm pretty sure it's everybody's dream. I mean who the hell minds having an extra couple of hundred millions at your disposal? Hell I can make do with a couple of millions right now. I'm pretty sure everyone who actually play lotteries would have that 'to buy list when I strike rich'. Suddenly everything seems to be more plesant. Even the skies are bluer than ever.
Here's an interesting anecdote. Almost 80% of lottery winners end up back where they were financially before they won the lottery. Not only that, they usually end up with more debts, broken families and also trust issues with almost anyone else. I can so imagine if I did win the lottery my long lost brother from Kenya would suddenly show up to claim his share of that money. People would flock to you like you're the sugar central for ants.
Come to think of it, having large sums of money is not necessarily a good thing as everyone thought to be. However, there are a few stuff that one can do to avoid all the negativity related to your lottery winnings. For one, just don't tell anyone(especially your wife!!!! haha), even if you have the best intentions of sharing your wealth. If everyone knows about your wealth, you wouldn't know who would be your true friends are. Hell, even right now I've been taken advantage financially, imagine all the gold diggers when you're worth hundreds of millions.
Second thing would be to hire a financial advisor. In fact, this should be the very first thing you should do when you strike the gold. Having a person who are professional in handling funds ensures that you wouldn't get burned out. This should be the upmost priority, and would be the best investment you'd ever made. Of course, go make some investments on your own cause money would run out one day. Just ask the 80% of the lottery winners.
Thirdly, don't attract unwanted attention by flashing around. This is not to create jealousy and hate from other people. Just face it, people are jealous especially when the money you have literally fall from the sky. Everyone would of course would want the money as they think you don't deserve it and you driving your Lambo around doesn't ease their jealousy. So keep a low key life. Difficult I know as I would really love rubbing my Lambos against my other nemesis but remember, as cliche as it sounds with vast money comes great responsibility. The other benefit of not flashing around is that you do not waste your money on unecessary things, stretching your hard earned money to the limit.
Another thing which is related to the third thing is that to live a normal life. Your mentality is very important here and is that you want to live a normal life, not because you're worried of the consequences. Often enough happiness is a state of mind, not by the amount of zeros in your bank account. One must understand that extra wealth does not bring infinite happiness but rather just eases the worry of money. Go do the things you've always wanted like maybe travel around the world, fulfilling meaningful dreams.
Last but not least, donate a certain amount of money to charity, SINCERELY! I know alot of people donate large sums of money to charity because of tax benefits but that's a different story. Again sincerity is the key here. Don't underestimate karma as you would be surprised if you do. Do remember that in truth your money IS literally fallen from the sky into your hands, so go do something beneficial to the world.
I watched a show where her father comes to her talking about how foolish of her paying so much money buying those collectors cards and say they're essentially just paper. Her daughter then say 'Well then I don't understand why adults get so worked out over money. It's also paper right daddy?' Her father than couldn't say anything.
Saturday, May 17, 2008
It's not about being green, you're just cheap
You know nowadays there are companies who like saying that they're being green and that they're trying to save the trees, reduce CO2, save the animals, reduce pollution bla bla bla. To be honest, they're actually just trying to save money and then cover it up by being green. I mean how fucking cheap these companies can be? To prove my point I'll give you some examples.
My university is trying to reduce paper load. Sure with the internet and stuff they can reduce paperload and stuff like that but actually they're just trying to save money from buying papers and buying ink catridges. If they're so interested in reducing pollution and stuff why don't they install solar panels and change their whole fleet of service vehicles with electric or hybrid vehicles? Hell since you so gila green might as well don't use vehicles at all in the university campus.
My bank also another one. They want to encourage people to go online and be 'paperless'. You know if you say that you want to save administration costs and stuff like that then maybe I would understand and go paperless. However they really piss me off by saying I should go green and make it as though if you opt for monthly mail statements you're like a ultimate polluter and make you feel and look bad. Because of that I still opt to have monthly statements just to be a jerk.
In conclusion, companies just be honest and say that you want to cut costs. I can understand that as everyone wants to reduce expenditure. However, when you say you want to be green then seriously you're just lying. It makes me hate greenies!
My university is trying to reduce paper load. Sure with the internet and stuff they can reduce paperload and stuff like that but actually they're just trying to save money from buying papers and buying ink catridges. If they're so interested in reducing pollution and stuff why don't they install solar panels and change their whole fleet of service vehicles with electric or hybrid vehicles? Hell since you so gila green might as well don't use vehicles at all in the university campus.
My bank also another one. They want to encourage people to go online and be 'paperless'. You know if you say that you want to save administration costs and stuff like that then maybe I would understand and go paperless. However they really piss me off by saying I should go green and make it as though if you opt for monthly mail statements you're like a ultimate polluter and make you feel and look bad. Because of that I still opt to have monthly statements just to be a jerk.
In conclusion, companies just be honest and say that you want to cut costs. I can understand that as everyone wants to reduce expenditure. However, when you say you want to be green then seriously you're just lying. It makes me hate greenies!
Friday, May 2, 2008
Graduation
So yea, for those who didn't know about this, I graduated. In a way I'm glad that I've finally finish studying and I don't have anymore nightmares about paper assignments and stuff. Anywayz, my parents would have the much deserved relaxation since my uni fees was taking a big chunk of their savings. I seriously wanted to burn my graduation gown but I can't seem to recruit anyone to do the same.
So what happens next? Well, I've already been granted a one year working visa and so I'm trying to get a job before my visa officially starts on June 1st. My parents saw Chicago for the first time and having seen things for the first time you would obviously love it and stuff. I heard job opportunities are aplenty in Chicago so maybe I might just go there and work for a while. The downside of this is that the rental would be expensive and I wouldn't think I would keep my car anymore. Hmmmm..... seriously so much things in my mind.
So what happens next? Well, I've already been granted a one year working visa and so I'm trying to get a job before my visa officially starts on June 1st. My parents saw Chicago for the first time and having seen things for the first time you would obviously love it and stuff. I heard job opportunities are aplenty in Chicago so maybe I might just go there and work for a while. The downside of this is that the rental would be expensive and I wouldn't think I would keep my car anymore. Hmmmm..... seriously so much things in my mind.
Sunday, April 20, 2008
A Final Goodbye
Last thursday, Derek (who is myself describing in third party, just in case people who are too blur) & Danielle had a final presentation for their marketing class. Danielle was Derek's partner and has been so since the beginning of semester. So on thursday itself, D&D was preparing for the epic final presentation printing out all the neccessary crap that is needed for the presentation. Not knowing to D&D was that Holy & Kirsten was having a final presentation as well.
While Derek was busy grabbing hold of his stuff and packing up, Danielle went over to Holy & Kirsten and started talking to them. After Derek clumsily grab hold of all the stuff, he went over to the 3 of them, where they started talking about other people who has went through the presentation. Derek being the shy one, started stoning and wishing how soon he would had finally be done with his final presentation. Actually, he kinda had a crush on Kirsten, and he was like thinking oh well this is the last time he would be seeing her as there are no more classes. Them all being dressed professionally was just a bonus as well.
Then out of the blue, Kirsten then suddenly turned to Derek, who was still daydreaming with his mouth wide open, started talking to him. This were her words "Oh Derek by the way, your haircut looks great! I saw that when you were walking in to class yesterday" (on Wednesday). At first Derek was stunned, like a deer gettig caught with the brightest set of headlights ever! He then sheepily said "Oh thanks alot!" and he could felt his face burning red with embarrasment.
Derek then thought to himself "OMG, is this some kind of sign or something? This whole semester Kirsten never even spoke a word to me and I was fine until she has to say those words" Sigh, Derek may never know what she actually meant, as he might never ever meet her again.
While Derek was busy grabbing hold of his stuff and packing up, Danielle went over to Holy & Kirsten and started talking to them. After Derek clumsily grab hold of all the stuff, he went over to the 3 of them, where they started talking about other people who has went through the presentation. Derek being the shy one, started stoning and wishing how soon he would had finally be done with his final presentation. Actually, he kinda had a crush on Kirsten, and he was like thinking oh well this is the last time he would be seeing her as there are no more classes. Them all being dressed professionally was just a bonus as well.
Then out of the blue, Kirsten then suddenly turned to Derek, who was still daydreaming with his mouth wide open, started talking to him. This were her words "Oh Derek by the way, your haircut looks great! I saw that when you were walking in to class yesterday" (on Wednesday). At first Derek was stunned, like a deer gettig caught with the brightest set of headlights ever! He then sheepily said "Oh thanks alot!" and he could felt his face burning red with embarrasment.
Derek then thought to himself "OMG, is this some kind of sign or something? This whole semester Kirsten never even spoke a word to me and I was fine until she has to say those words" Sigh, Derek may never know what she actually meant, as he might never ever meet her again.
Sunday, April 13, 2008
The Time Has Come
I'm very sure that every Asian friend that I have would have gone through the countless brainwashing that we go through courtesy of our parents. The propaganda would be that you must study hard and that without that degree you would be equivalent to a useless delinquent with no hopes and future. So for me I would then assume that if I had that degree you would have the whole world in your hands, able to buy that Ferrari that I'd long for.
Then you guys would assume that in exactly 2 weeks time when I graduate I would be the happiest soul on earth. My parents would be coming down to witness it. I think it is more to confirm that I really did graduate, much to their surprise and then after checking out that I really did graduate, I think no one would be happier than my parents when I finally throw that fucking hat up in the air as a symbol that I'd graduated (after going through education, I believe throwing that hat up in the air is a symbol of how much money has been thrown away in the name of 'education').
Ok, from this point I really sound like a fucking ungrateful brat pouting and ranting, but let me finish and get to my point. You see, I should be so happy that I had finally graduate and get my Ferrari. But to my dismay, I'd realized you're not even a quarter way there. I have been given a perception that with a degree I would be able to do wonders and stuff, which many of you would realize that it is not necessarily so. It is no big secret that studying in the United States of America (know short as the US) has been a big challenge for me, physically, mentally everything. Dealing with the assignments and stuff is nothing, but the politics and the bullshit that I had to endure over this last two years has shaped my thoughts, perceptions and outlook towards life. Unfortunately, overall it has shaped me negatively, as the once thin happy-go-lucky cheerful outgoing me has become to be a grossly overweight 200 pounder pessimistic lethargic anti social brat. I'd realized that I rather stare at the computer screen the whole day rather than to go out with my friends. Well, hell I don't even consider them as friends and maybe they're not so bad and it's all in my mind but after going through alot of two faced backstabbers, I'm not taking my chances.
To sum things up, a degree is nothing but a piece of paper saying that you have a certain profeciency in a particular job like marketing, engineering etc etc. I feel the most important skill one should develop would be the ability to communicate and get along with people. It doesn't matter if you're utterly dumb or stupid, as long as you have people by your side, just ask George Bush. You don't see billionaires like Bill Gates having a degree. Hell he even dropped out of Stanford College, and look what he has become.
Somebody once told me that I should savor this moment and be proud of myself of what I have achieved. Well, you can feel proud if you feel you are, and I'm not feeling any of it. I don't even feel like going for the graduation ceremony cause I don't feel proud of it. Maybe my parents are, but I certainly am not because I don't think there is nothing to be proud of. Lately I have been having depression over this graduating thingy. I don't even know why it has become of this but seriously I think I am really fucked up at this point. I can see myself going insane when I'm trying very hard not to. I even joked about having this quarter life crisis. Sigh.....
Then you guys would assume that in exactly 2 weeks time when I graduate I would be the happiest soul on earth. My parents would be coming down to witness it. I think it is more to confirm that I really did graduate, much to their surprise and then after checking out that I really did graduate, I think no one would be happier than my parents when I finally throw that fucking hat up in the air as a symbol that I'd graduated (after going through education, I believe throwing that hat up in the air is a symbol of how much money has been thrown away in the name of 'education').
Ok, from this point I really sound like a fucking ungrateful brat pouting and ranting, but let me finish and get to my point. You see, I should be so happy that I had finally graduate and get my Ferrari. But to my dismay, I'd realized you're not even a quarter way there. I have been given a perception that with a degree I would be able to do wonders and stuff, which many of you would realize that it is not necessarily so. It is no big secret that studying in the United States of America (know short as the US) has been a big challenge for me, physically, mentally everything. Dealing with the assignments and stuff is nothing, but the politics and the bullshit that I had to endure over this last two years has shaped my thoughts, perceptions and outlook towards life. Unfortunately, overall it has shaped me negatively, as the once thin happy-go-lucky cheerful outgoing me has become to be a grossly overweight 200 pounder pessimistic lethargic anti social brat. I'd realized that I rather stare at the computer screen the whole day rather than to go out with my friends. Well, hell I don't even consider them as friends and maybe they're not so bad and it's all in my mind but after going through alot of two faced backstabbers, I'm not taking my chances.
To sum things up, a degree is nothing but a piece of paper saying that you have a certain profeciency in a particular job like marketing, engineering etc etc. I feel the most important skill one should develop would be the ability to communicate and get along with people. It doesn't matter if you're utterly dumb or stupid, as long as you have people by your side, just ask George Bush. You don't see billionaires like Bill Gates having a degree. Hell he even dropped out of Stanford College, and look what he has become.
Somebody once told me that I should savor this moment and be proud of myself of what I have achieved. Well, you can feel proud if you feel you are, and I'm not feeling any of it. I don't even feel like going for the graduation ceremony cause I don't feel proud of it. Maybe my parents are, but I certainly am not because I don't think there is nothing to be proud of. Lately I have been having depression over this graduating thingy. I don't even know why it has become of this but seriously I think I am really fucked up at this point. I can see myself going insane when I'm trying very hard not to. I even joked about having this quarter life crisis. Sigh.....
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
Three Days Grace
There's a new album from Three Days Grace called One X. For those who are not familiar with this band, they are the one who sang 'I Hate Everything About You'. Gone Forever is one of my favorite songs as I used to go through that shit last time. However, the most favorite song would be 'Animal I Have Become'. Telling you the names of the song sounds corny, but when you listen to the whole album I think most of you can relate to the lyrics of the songs. Anywayz, this is Gone Forever.........
Gone Forever lyrics
Don't know what's going on
Don't know what went wrong
Feels like a hundred years
IStill can't believe you're gone
So I'll stay up all night
With these bloodshot eyes
While these walls surround me with the story of our life
I feel so much better
Now that you're gone forever
I tell myself that
I don't miss you at all
I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now
That you're gone forever
Now things are coming clear
And I don't need you here
And in this world around me
I'm glad you disappeared
So I'll stay out all night
Get drunk and fuck and fight
Until the morning comes
I'llForget about our life
I feel so much better
Now that you're gone forever
I tell myself that I don't miss you at all
I'm not lying, denying that
I feel so much better now
That you're gone forever
First time you screamed at me
I should have made you leave
I should have known it could be so much better
I hope you're missing me
I hope I've made you see
That I'm gone forever
And now it's coming clear
That I don't need you here
And in this world around me
I'm glad you disappeared
I feel so much better
Now that you're gone forever
I tell myself that I don't miss you at all
I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now
That you're gone forever
And now you're gone forever
And now you're gone forever
Gone Forever lyrics
Don't know what's going on
Don't know what went wrong
Feels like a hundred years
IStill can't believe you're gone
So I'll stay up all night
With these bloodshot eyes
While these walls surround me with the story of our life
I feel so much better
Now that you're gone forever
I tell myself that
I don't miss you at all
I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now
That you're gone forever
Now things are coming clear
And I don't need you here
And in this world around me
I'm glad you disappeared
So I'll stay out all night
Get drunk and fuck and fight
Until the morning comes
I'llForget about our life
I feel so much better
Now that you're gone forever
I tell myself that I don't miss you at all
I'm not lying, denying that
I feel so much better now
That you're gone forever
First time you screamed at me
I should have made you leave
I should have known it could be so much better
I hope you're missing me
I hope I've made you see
That I'm gone forever
And now it's coming clear
That I don't need you here
And in this world around me
I'm glad you disappeared
I feel so much better
Now that you're gone forever
I tell myself that I don't miss you at all
I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now
That you're gone forever
And now you're gone forever
And now you're gone forever
Saturday, April 5, 2008
Have you ask?
Many times I have ask myself whether you are what you think you are or you are what the society perceives you are. Aren't we all struggling to just fit in with the society?
Have you ask youself what is right and wrong? Have you ask that something you thought is right maybe isn't that right or something so wrong isn't as wrong given certain circumstances?
Have you ask yourself whether this whole life thing is all a rat race. Get the As, get the degree, get the job, get the wife/husband, get the kids, then die.....
Have you ask that in this ever more increasing liberal world, with all the gender equality etc etc instead of feeling a sense of freedom we're ever more suffocated and being packaged to fit the society?
Have you ask what the fuck is life about?
Have you ask youself what is right and wrong? Have you ask that something you thought is right maybe isn't that right or something so wrong isn't as wrong given certain circumstances?
Have you ask yourself whether this whole life thing is all a rat race. Get the As, get the degree, get the job, get the wife/husband, get the kids, then die.....
Have you ask that in this ever more increasing liberal world, with all the gender equality etc etc instead of feeling a sense of freedom we're ever more suffocated and being packaged to fit the society?
Have you ask what the fuck is life about?
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
Ditching that car...at least partially
Many of you would know that I'm a serious car nut enthusiast. But now with the rising fuel costs getting ridiculously expensive I'm seriously wondering whether it is cheaper to just sell off my freaking car. As much as I love my car, that junk get's me only 15mpg running around the city even with me driving like a 200 year old granny. Furthermore, I've been using the bus quite often now to go to classes except for early classes as I always wake up late.
Come to think of it, I got the car because of some people nagging to get a car and so on. Now that she's not in the picture anymore and that I'm single, the car is basically more of a liability than a convenience. I still have to pay that odd 500dollars of insurance for no apparent reason plus gas which many people are saying going to hit $4.00 per gallon. For my friends who are living in EU countries, i know it's freaking cheap but coming from Malaysia, our petrol only runs around 2.29USD/gallon after conversion.
So I guess my freedom to go around is limited by how far I can walk or the bus can go. Not to worry though, I was thinking of getting a scooter! Yes, I can so imagine myself being a dork with a Honda Metropolitan scooter. It's minuscle 49cc engine goes to the top speed of 40mph. Me hovering over 200pounds would mean it might only go around 30mph. On the upside however, I am getting around 100mpg and it is classified as a moped thus no need to pay those fucking insurance bastards money for nothing. I might very well just do that after my parents go back to Malaysia after my graduation.
Oh well, that's all I can rant about for now. Have a freaking test tomorrow. Seeya all.
Come to think of it, I got the car because of some people nagging to get a car and so on. Now that she's not in the picture anymore and that I'm single, the car is basically more of a liability than a convenience. I still have to pay that odd 500dollars of insurance for no apparent reason plus gas which many people are saying going to hit $4.00 per gallon. For my friends who are living in EU countries, i know it's freaking cheap but coming from Malaysia, our petrol only runs around 2.29USD/gallon after conversion.
So I guess my freedom to go around is limited by how far I can walk or the bus can go. Not to worry though, I was thinking of getting a scooter! Yes, I can so imagine myself being a dork with a Honda Metropolitan scooter. It's minuscle 49cc engine goes to the top speed of 40mph. Me hovering over 200pounds would mean it might only go around 30mph. On the upside however, I am getting around 100mpg and it is classified as a moped thus no need to pay those fucking insurance bastards money for nothing. I might very well just do that after my parents go back to Malaysia after my graduation.
Oh well, that's all I can rant about for now. Have a freaking test tomorrow. Seeya all.
Friday, March 28, 2008
60lbs in 30 days? Imfreakingpossible
As of Monday March 24th, 2008 I made up my mind to go work out everyday. My aim was to lose 60 pounds in 30 days, in which I realize I find it really impossible. Weghing myself everyday wasn't working either and I find out that I'm actually putting on weight rather than losing weight. Hmm maybe the first few days I'm gaining muscle mass before losing weight.
Sigh, I'm so freaking out now. The reason why I'm doing this is because I want to be able to fit in my freaking suit. Right now I'm barely fitting into it and if my suit can talk he would be screaming for air and shouting out "stop wearing me you're ripping me apart". But whatever-la, I'll stop looking at my weight for now and just freaking run and pump like a mad dog.
Sigh, I'm so freaking out now. The reason why I'm doing this is because I want to be able to fit in my freaking suit. Right now I'm barely fitting into it and if my suit can talk he would be screaming for air and shouting out "stop wearing me you're ripping me apart". But whatever-la, I'll stop looking at my weight for now and just freaking run and pump like a mad dog.
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
=.="
It's been a while since I wrote a post I know. I'm running out of ideas of what to say. Actually I have lots of things in mind these past few days ranging from where would I be after graduation to some shit that has happened in the past.
Going to the minisales school kinda haunts me. To me that time was the start of the downfall of my relationship. Somehow rather, although I'm sure I won't be going for the summer internship, there's this little thing inside telling me to go for it. Show everyone who the fuck you really are and rise up to the occasion. Looking back I wasn't mentally ready for it and maybe the second time around it wouldn't be so bad. Anywayz, I guess this is something which I would have to put at the back of my mind and it's nice seeing everyone again plus some new faces. Unlike the Malaysians in WMU, we all are very open and friendly towards each other. Maybe it's because we don't live in the same place, but I can feel the tension between WMU-ans when we hang around. Or maybe it's just my sensitivity.
There are things in life where although logically it is a stupid thing to do, emotionally is the very right thing to do. I sometimes feel life in general is very paradoxical. You know how we always say don't get too emotional, yet lacking emotional intelligence would become a serious disadvantage for an individual. I guess it's like the ying-yang thingy, where they say the opposites are interdependant and that it needs each other to survive. Maybe this explains couples usually have total opposite characters.
In life we'll have to learn how to practice moderation. It's no point being too emotional or too rational about it. This is one of the weaknesses that I seem to have; being too extreme and unable to go through the moderate path. I've noticed myself becoming too emotional over my last relationship to being too rational/blah about life. To me, my life now is one big emotionless vaccumm, which makes me as though i'm some heartless bastard without having any consideration of other people.
Well, this is one of many other things in my mind that I care to articulate now. Somehow, there is this feeling inside me that I've been keeping ever since coming back from Chicago. I'll see how much I can deny it before having to deal with it.
Going to the minisales school kinda haunts me. To me that time was the start of the downfall of my relationship. Somehow rather, although I'm sure I won't be going for the summer internship, there's this little thing inside telling me to go for it. Show everyone who the fuck you really are and rise up to the occasion. Looking back I wasn't mentally ready for it and maybe the second time around it wouldn't be so bad. Anywayz, I guess this is something which I would have to put at the back of my mind and it's nice seeing everyone again plus some new faces. Unlike the Malaysians in WMU, we all are very open and friendly towards each other. Maybe it's because we don't live in the same place, but I can feel the tension between WMU-ans when we hang around. Or maybe it's just my sensitivity.
There are things in life where although logically it is a stupid thing to do, emotionally is the very right thing to do. I sometimes feel life in general is very paradoxical. You know how we always say don't get too emotional, yet lacking emotional intelligence would become a serious disadvantage for an individual. I guess it's like the ying-yang thingy, where they say the opposites are interdependant and that it needs each other to survive. Maybe this explains couples usually have total opposite characters.
In life we'll have to learn how to practice moderation. It's no point being too emotional or too rational about it. This is one of the weaknesses that I seem to have; being too extreme and unable to go through the moderate path. I've noticed myself becoming too emotional over my last relationship to being too rational/blah about life. To me, my life now is one big emotionless vaccumm, which makes me as though i'm some heartless bastard without having any consideration of other people.
Well, this is one of many other things in my mind that I care to articulate now. Somehow, there is this feeling inside me that I've been keeping ever since coming back from Chicago. I'll see how much I can deny it before having to deal with it.
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Boringness
Since coming back to NYC, I felt my life is very stagnant. Everynight I would sleep at around 4 or 5 something in the morning, drive myself to classes and back cook dinner and then hang around. In an attempt entertain myself, I download movies to watch (and in case you're wondering, it is movies that you watch in the cinema =.=). It's not that there's nothing to do. I mean like today there was an International Food Festival. However, I can so imagine gold digger being there with 400 hp (go figure out what I'm trying to say). Lately also, I've been disliking certain group of Asians. Again, I shall just tell myself that they have been brought up this way and I'm wierd and different.
Anywayz, I was watching The Mist. This show talks about a mysterious mist that swept this little town and were trapped in this convenience store. To put things short, the mist I presume create mutations to the animals that breathe in the mist but is immune to humans. The result of the mutations are crazy screwed up animals flying around eating people up and stuff like that. While all this is happening, this crazy staunch Christian begins to brainwash the people in the convenience store, and the rational and sane people were chased out. However, this is not before one of them shot the Christian fanatic, in which I yell out " Yea you .............., you deserve is you son of a ............"
Cursing aside, this show brought myself to think of how can people change under extreme conditions. Before the mist, she was that crazy person who preaches to anyone that bothers to talk to her. Come to this situation, suddenly everyone become entranced in her preachings. I wonder what is the reason for this to happen? Well, as they were in a state of confusion with all the mists and all, they want to know what happened? Then along came this women who says judgement day has come bla bla bla and then she cite specific occurances and say that it is described in the bible. In normal conditions, it would be absurb to believe in what she's saying but in times of desperation, when all things doesn't make sense, hearing something less nonsensical suddenly seems very logical.
While we are always taught to be curious and know the 'why', curiosity kills the cat too. We are always asking why this happened and become so frustrated that we become emotional over it. Seriously, I should do some experiment and make myself a cult. The easiest way would be to confuse the person to the max and then somehow offer them a perfect solution by joining the cult. Somehow, with all these advances in technology and civilization, we are just animals after all and survival instinct would bring out the animal in all of us.
Another lesson learnt here, if a similiar situation like in The Mist happens, I would be sure to shoot the preacher first. Till then, sayonara.
Anywayz, I was watching The Mist. This show talks about a mysterious mist that swept this little town and were trapped in this convenience store. To put things short, the mist I presume create mutations to the animals that breathe in the mist but is immune to humans. The result of the mutations are crazy screwed up animals flying around eating people up and stuff like that. While all this is happening, this crazy staunch Christian begins to brainwash the people in the convenience store, and the rational and sane people were chased out. However, this is not before one of them shot the Christian fanatic, in which I yell out " Yea you .............., you deserve is you son of a ............"
Cursing aside, this show brought myself to think of how can people change under extreme conditions. Before the mist, she was that crazy person who preaches to anyone that bothers to talk to her. Come to this situation, suddenly everyone become entranced in her preachings. I wonder what is the reason for this to happen? Well, as they were in a state of confusion with all the mists and all, they want to know what happened? Then along came this women who says judgement day has come bla bla bla and then she cite specific occurances and say that it is described in the bible. In normal conditions, it would be absurb to believe in what she's saying but in times of desperation, when all things doesn't make sense, hearing something less nonsensical suddenly seems very logical.
While we are always taught to be curious and know the 'why', curiosity kills the cat too. We are always asking why this happened and become so frustrated that we become emotional over it. Seriously, I should do some experiment and make myself a cult. The easiest way would be to confuse the person to the max and then somehow offer them a perfect solution by joining the cult. Somehow, with all these advances in technology and civilization, we are just animals after all and survival instinct would bring out the animal in all of us.
Another lesson learnt here, if a similiar situation like in The Mist happens, I would be sure to shoot the preacher first. Till then, sayonara.
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Becareful of What You Wish For
Before I delve further about what I am about to say, I failed to mention in my previous post that I'm thankful to my dearie Elaine for letting me stay at her apartment for 10 days. I greatly appreciate everything she has done for me while I was in NYC
Ok, this topic has to do about NYC as well. Actually it's more like my friends coming back from NYC. The thing was that while I was in NYC I had four other friends as well, including my housemate. For some reason, he started ignoring me and it has become so apparent that I'm greatly frustrated at my futile attempts to even try to talk to him. I don't know if I'm too sensitive but I feel that his dislike and ignorance towards me is greatly felt, and recently with his new arrival of his BMW, he got even more big-headed.
In a great anger plus a tinge of jealousy, I suddenly had this thought and actually mentioned to Elaine, "That fucker right, he think so big and stuff drive BMW want to show off. Furthermore now winter wanna buy sports car sure crash-wan."
Oh well, it did happen. It seems that the whole driver side of the car was wrecked and had it been reported to the insurance company it would be considered an insurance write off. In the end he decided to fix the car himself so that the car would still be considered a clean title instead of a salvage title.
Anywayz, I'm so shocked to hear that and at the same time I felt bad that I even thought of the idea of the accident, although I must say that it is such a waste of a good BMW. I told Elaine and she was like "omg, I shall not piss you off anymore. If not you would curse that I would fall down the stairs or something =.=" Anywayz, I didn't know I had such powerful influence on certain events. I wish though I would actually win the lottery and don't have to work ever again. And I've been thinking of it ever since I know what a lottery is.
But you see I never bought a lottery ticket even once since coming to US. This reminds me of my sister telling me a joke; One day, there was this beggar who prays everyday to god and ask that he would strike the lottery. With great persistence he prayed and finally god emerged from the clouds and then saide "My son, please go buy a lottery ticket for heaven's sakes!"
Ok, this topic has to do about NYC as well. Actually it's more like my friends coming back from NYC. The thing was that while I was in NYC I had four other friends as well, including my housemate. For some reason, he started ignoring me and it has become so apparent that I'm greatly frustrated at my futile attempts to even try to talk to him. I don't know if I'm too sensitive but I feel that his dislike and ignorance towards me is greatly felt, and recently with his new arrival of his BMW, he got even more big-headed.
In a great anger plus a tinge of jealousy, I suddenly had this thought and actually mentioned to Elaine, "That fucker right, he think so big and stuff drive BMW want to show off. Furthermore now winter wanna buy sports car sure crash-wan."
Oh well, it did happen. It seems that the whole driver side of the car was wrecked and had it been reported to the insurance company it would be considered an insurance write off. In the end he decided to fix the car himself so that the car would still be considered a clean title instead of a salvage title.
Anywayz, I'm so shocked to hear that and at the same time I felt bad that I even thought of the idea of the accident, although I must say that it is such a waste of a good BMW. I told Elaine and she was like "omg, I shall not piss you off anymore. If not you would curse that I would fall down the stairs or something =.=" Anywayz, I didn't know I had such powerful influence on certain events. I wish though I would actually win the lottery and don't have to work ever again. And I've been thinking of it ever since I know what a lottery is.
But you see I never bought a lottery ticket even once since coming to US. This reminds me of my sister telling me a joke; One day, there was this beggar who prays everyday to god and ask that he would strike the lottery. With great persistence he prayed and finally god emerged from the clouds and then saide "My son, please go buy a lottery ticket for heaven's sakes!"
Sunday, March 9, 2008
Back and Broke to the Max
Finally I'm back from New York. In the process, I'm thoroughly broke and will have to be ultra thrifty if I were to meet my monthly allocated expenses. To sum things, New York City is really great. Yes I didn't visit the two supposedly most must places to visit and that is the Statue of Liberty and the Empire State Building. I wanted to visit those places but when I reached the South Ferry to hop on the ferry to get onto the Liberty and Ellis Island, I was shocked to see the miles long queue to get into the ferry. So I said screw it and then proceeded to get to Empire State building. I was about to get in when on the last minute I decided not to go in. I was already at the front counter but decided not to. One thing was that it costs 19 dollars to get to the 86th floor observatory and another 16 dollars to get on the 101th floor top deck observatory. Furthermore, I feel that it is the second best observatory as the WTC towers were taller and Sears tower in Chicago which is taller than both of the towers costs only 12 dollars to get in. Ultimately, I feel it's a rip off and after going up the Sears Tower, buildings are just building and when you're up there, the scenery are just the same.
People in NYC are surprisingly alright for me. Maybe this is because I grew up in KL, which I think Malaysians are more hostile than the New Yorkans. I didn't get mugged or shot but at the same time I didn't meet any New York elites that I can gold dig. When I was travelling to the airport flying back to Chicago, a lady came asked me how to get to the airport as this was her first time getting there. In the end, she offered to pay the shuttle bus fare from the train station to the airport which I feel was very nice of her. Come to think of it now, she jokingly said I could buy her coffee and maybe I should had and then exchange numbers so that in the future maybe I could find her in NY. Aigh....
Would I like to stay in NYC? Well, I stayed with my friend and she love NYC so much that she's trying very hard to stay here as long as she can. I on the other hand might prefer Chicago as it still has it's own unique characteristics and affordable at the same time. San Diego I imagine would be nice if I earn at least an annual six-figure income to be able to enjoy the place to the fullest. The greatest thing I can imagine off-hand would be to cruise on a convertible Lamborghini with my Tag Heuer sunglasses and driving down highway 101.
Anywayz, while I was busy soaking the NYC atmosphere, the Malaysian general election concluded to many's surprise. I am surprised that many people are surprised of the results, so much so that even the opposition were dumbfounded. To me I guess it was very much expected. As an internet savvy person, the amount of disgust and hatred expressed to the government is shocking that I here in the US am worried of getting back to Malaysia. I think this is the turning point of Malaysian politics. A certain party can be in power only for so long. From now on if the opposition does and excellent job in handling their territories while the BN continues waving their kerises in thin air very soon the next election the majority would be dominated by the oppositions. By the way, I'm still very skeptical about PAS. I can't imagine myself coming back to Malaysia after so long being overseas only to be kidnapped and forced to perform a circumcision upon me.
I'm sorry that I don't have much pictures to post here. I didn't take much pictures and those that I took are crappy ones. Oh well, till then good night everyone.
People in NYC are surprisingly alright for me. Maybe this is because I grew up in KL, which I think Malaysians are more hostile than the New Yorkans. I didn't get mugged or shot but at the same time I didn't meet any New York elites that I can gold dig. When I was travelling to the airport flying back to Chicago, a lady came asked me how to get to the airport as this was her first time getting there. In the end, she offered to pay the shuttle bus fare from the train station to the airport which I feel was very nice of her. Come to think of it now, she jokingly said I could buy her coffee and maybe I should had and then exchange numbers so that in the future maybe I could find her in NY. Aigh....
Would I like to stay in NYC? Well, I stayed with my friend and she love NYC so much that she's trying very hard to stay here as long as she can. I on the other hand might prefer Chicago as it still has it's own unique characteristics and affordable at the same time. San Diego I imagine would be nice if I earn at least an annual six-figure income to be able to enjoy the place to the fullest. The greatest thing I can imagine off-hand would be to cruise on a convertible Lamborghini with my Tag Heuer sunglasses and driving down highway 101.
Anywayz, while I was busy soaking the NYC atmosphere, the Malaysian general election concluded to many's surprise. I am surprised that many people are surprised of the results, so much so that even the opposition were dumbfounded. To me I guess it was very much expected. As an internet savvy person, the amount of disgust and hatred expressed to the government is shocking that I here in the US am worried of getting back to Malaysia. I think this is the turning point of Malaysian politics. A certain party can be in power only for so long. From now on if the opposition does and excellent job in handling their territories while the BN continues waving their kerises in thin air very soon the next election the majority would be dominated by the oppositions. By the way, I'm still very skeptical about PAS. I can't imagine myself coming back to Malaysia after so long being overseas only to be kidnapped and forced to perform a circumcision upon me.
I'm sorry that I don't have much pictures to post here. I didn't take much pictures and those that I took are crappy ones. Oh well, till then good night everyone.
Sunday, March 2, 2008
New York so far
Oh well, New York is fun but not as glamorous as I thought. Unfortunately, I couldn't be bothered taking pictures and I only went out to explore most of the area at night. Places I went so fat include the Times Square twice!, Chinatown, Soho area, Grand Central Park, Natural History Museum and random grocery shopping. Initially on Friday I stayed at home cause I was tired and also afraid to go out just in case I got lost. After Elaine showed me how to get around the Subway I was going places. I bought a 7 day pass which allows me to go hop in hop out on any subway throughout the 7 days. Slurp slurp, the pass is like a free pass hahaha.
I'll try to take more pictures soon. I'll be going to the malaysian consulate to try and renew my passport and also go around Central Park at the daytime. Also I might go to the Metropolitian Art museum at the Upper East Side, the poshest side of Manhattan. Maybe I can go bergigolo there hahahaha. Ok back to reality.
I'll try to take more pictures soon. I'll be going to the malaysian consulate to try and renew my passport and also go around Central Park at the daytime. Also I might go to the Metropolitian Art museum at the Upper East Side, the poshest side of Manhattan. Maybe I can go bergigolo there hahahaha. Ok back to reality.
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Lately if you all have noticed I've been in touch with my creative side. Suddenly I have this urge of drawing and expressing myself in poems. And for your info, it's not about rapping =.= . One of my lovely friends thought that I was some African-American wannabe rapping out these words yo! =.=' Seriously, I don't do rapping. Can't imagine a fat ching chong bastard trying to rap.
Anywayz, I'll be heading of for Chicago on Wednesday, then I would head off to New York on Thursday afternoon. Honestly speaking I'm quite nervous cause I'll be taking public transport. I get really nervous when I take public transport especially when I'm new to the place and that I would be lugging a big luggage bag around. Furthermore, I'm not really sure of what to do when I get to New York. Perhaps I would just visit those main attractions and stuff.
Another thing is that I'm considering if I should tell everyone about this blog. The problem is by doing that I would have to tone down my severe hating towards people, be more politically correct etc etc. The good thing about telling people about my blog is.......erm.......well actually the only plus side I can see is that if I want to indirectly crticize that person and then I subsitute that person's name as X or Y. Wahaha!
Hmm maybe I should just make another blog. Maybe i should put it as dhlee2.blogspot.com wahahaha
Anywayz, I'll be heading of for Chicago on Wednesday, then I would head off to New York on Thursday afternoon. Honestly speaking I'm quite nervous cause I'll be taking public transport. I get really nervous when I take public transport especially when I'm new to the place and that I would be lugging a big luggage bag around. Furthermore, I'm not really sure of what to do when I get to New York. Perhaps I would just visit those main attractions and stuff.
Another thing is that I'm considering if I should tell everyone about this blog. The problem is by doing that I would have to tone down my severe hating towards people, be more politically correct etc etc. The good thing about telling people about my blog is.......erm.......well actually the only plus side I can see is that if I want to indirectly crticize that person and then I subsitute that person's name as X or Y. Wahaha!
Hmm maybe I should just make another blog. Maybe i should put it as dhlee2.blogspot.com wahahaha
Unexplained emotions
I think I need to escape
I need to go on an escapade
All these bullshit is driving me wild
To a point I’m getting blind
Why like this one may ask
To stay sane is such a daunting task
Pressure is from all directions
And the source of this there’s no explanation
I just wanna run & run & run
The idea sounds like fun
Well dream and reality there’s a lot of difference
As in reality there’s consequence
So this is what I have in mind
Looking for something I can’t find
Maybe if I close my eyes
Things would be as bliss as the blue skies
I need to go on an escapade
All these bullshit is driving me wild
To a point I’m getting blind
Why like this one may ask
To stay sane is such a daunting task
Pressure is from all directions
And the source of this there’s no explanation
I just wanna run & run & run
The idea sounds like fun
Well dream and reality there’s a lot of difference
As in reality there’s consequence
So this is what I have in mind
Looking for something I can’t find
Maybe if I close my eyes
Things would be as bliss as the blue skies
Saturday, February 23, 2008
Untitled Feelings
As graduation looms near
I find myself in fear
The fear of uncertainty
Which might result in a calamity
Oh what is this feeling
My stomach is reeling
My fear is rising
And there’s no way of hiding
The thought of time
That is worth more than a dime
Is that is running out
And I’m freaking out
The definition of life
Is currently in a strife
Trying to get my act together
Is a daunting task like no other
Perhaps there’s hope
Maybe I pray to the pope
Maybe my prayers are answered
Or He couldn’t be bothered
Bla bla bla
Life is an enigma
Hopefully I can understand it
But for now, fuck it
I find myself in fear
The fear of uncertainty
Which might result in a calamity
Oh what is this feeling
My stomach is reeling
My fear is rising
And there’s no way of hiding
The thought of time
That is worth more than a dime
Is that is running out
And I’m freaking out
The definition of life
Is currently in a strife
Trying to get my act together
Is a daunting task like no other
Perhaps there’s hope
Maybe I pray to the pope
Maybe my prayers are answered
Or He couldn’t be bothered
Bla bla bla
Life is an enigma
Hopefully I can understand it
But for now, fuck it
Friday, February 22, 2008
Crossroads
In case you're wondering, I'm not talking about the movie which starred Britney Lunatic Spears. I'm describing about the situation I'm in now. They say a picture is worth a thousand words, so here is a drawing describing how I feel right now.
I am aware that the picture is too small for some people to read it. The heading says "You have reached the crossroads of your life, what are you gonna do?" And if you look at the four paths it is money, self-fulfillment, love and acceptance.
Bad drawing aside, there are many other paths that can be treaded upon. However, I feel that these four are the most significant paths in my life. Knowing that I would be graduating soon, I would have to make a choice of what kind of path should I choose. I'm gonna elaborate more about the four things.
money - It is a no-brainer that this is the path many people love to take, including myself. Many equate the level of success depends on the amount of zeros that you have in your bank.
love - This is one of the most wonderful experiences that you can have. It is not limited to just the relationship but love among your family and friends.
acceptance - As human beings are social animals, people want acceptance from as many people as they want. Many confuse the money and acceptance; that if they have a lot of money they would be accepted by the society. In many ways it's true but they're accepting of your money, not you.
self-fulfillment - Have you achieved what you yourself want in life? Have you achieved what you want to do in this world?
For me, this four paths when chosen there's no way of turning back. Sure when you have tons of money you could buy your way back to the crossroads and choose acceptance, love or self-fulfillment. However, when you're too into something, like chasing after money, when you want to turn back time is lost and often it is too late. And if you choose the other three paths, you would need money to survive at some point.
This brings myself to a dilemma, what path should i choose? I guess the answer is to take the moderate path. It is possible to divide your commitment to four other different things, albeit it can be difficult. For me I'm always wondering if I could do that or not. The easy way out is to just strive on the money part but I know further down the road I would regret my decision.
There is exactly 63 days left for my graduation. It ought to be that the nearer you come to the crossroads, the clearer it is of what path you want. For this case, the nearer the crossroads, the blurrer and more undecided of what path I want to tread upon. Time is running out..........
Saturday, February 16, 2008
To Live is To Suffer
Although you can say that I'm a Buddhist, seriously I don't know much about the religion. Even when my mom goes to the temple and asks me to pray, I pray in plain english, not the religion codes that each respective religion has. I remembered everytime I pray, I also prayed that Buddha has a translator so that he can understand what the heck I'm praying about. Sometimes I felt he doesn't have one cause I felt my prayers are always never answered.
Now in my religion class, we're talking about Buddha. One thing that strike my mind is that to live is to suffer. It is understood that once we reach the end of our lives ie. DIE! our sufferings are then gone before going to hell and screening whether you should be back in earth or something. The reason of our suffering in this world is because of our desire and love for something impermanent like you love your dogs which might one day be met with a car accident or your parents whom like anybody else's parents would pass away and leave us behind.
I find this view rather pessimistic. Sure you will suffer in this world no doubt but you do not suffer all the time. Newton's third law of motion states that for every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction. In this world, I always believe in the end our lives would balance out, no matter how much money you have, where you live etc etc. Coming back to suffering, if you think life is all about suffering and it sucks, it's not entirely true. Sure suffering sucks, everyone from time to time suffer from various kinds of shortcomings, but if you never suffer from your life how would you know the feeling of joy and happiness?
In order to feel the meaning of joy and happiness, once has to feel sorrow and despair. All this are part of life. There is some need of contrast in your life. One can't feel a feeling of sorrow or happiness if their life is just constant and routine, so once in a while suffering is good.
Now in my religion class, we're talking about Buddha. One thing that strike my mind is that to live is to suffer. It is understood that once we reach the end of our lives ie. DIE! our sufferings are then gone before going to hell and screening whether you should be back in earth or something. The reason of our suffering in this world is because of our desire and love for something impermanent like you love your dogs which might one day be met with a car accident or your parents whom like anybody else's parents would pass away and leave us behind.
I find this view rather pessimistic. Sure you will suffer in this world no doubt but you do not suffer all the time. Newton's third law of motion states that for every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction. In this world, I always believe in the end our lives would balance out, no matter how much money you have, where you live etc etc. Coming back to suffering, if you think life is all about suffering and it sucks, it's not entirely true. Sure suffering sucks, everyone from time to time suffer from various kinds of shortcomings, but if you never suffer from your life how would you know the feeling of joy and happiness?
In order to feel the meaning of joy and happiness, once has to feel sorrow and despair. All this are part of life. There is some need of contrast in your life. One can't feel a feeling of sorrow or happiness if their life is just constant and routine, so once in a while suffering is good.
Thursday, February 14, 2008
Shootings again
Just about 10 hours ago, there was a shooting incident in Northern Illinois University, killing five people, including the gunman who actually shot himself to death. Well, my usual self were to say that that fucking gunman deserved to shoot himself and then burn in all for all eternity. Somehow rather, this incident intrigued me into how does one person would be able to do such violent and inhuman acts. I can only conclude that these people either really think this is some Counter-Strike game or something, or that they really have nothing better else to do, or that it is a sign of lost hope and extreme desperation.
As usual, the whole circus act comes around, so typical of an American culture. One of them talks about fencing up all the universities and to install metal detectors upon entering the university campus. I can only imagine if I were late to school and I have to rush to class. Before entering the university I have to get down of my car, strip search me and my car before being able to enter. I guess we have a new excuse of why we're late. I'm sorry Mr/Mrs Professor, I was late cause the police thought my ipod was a detonator. The Americans are such that they are looking for the cure rather than preventing it. They focus so much on how to make the universities safer, when the root of the problem are the students itself. What makes a student hate the place so much that he wants to shoot everyone he could find? Have you people, who is supposedly the best country in the world realize that the problem lies within the psychological welfare of the students? Or American citizens in general?
Of all the shootings that I've found, shooters seems to have a similiar profile, and that they tend to be the loners who are often being ridiculed, harrassed or teased at school. Usually these people would develop psychological problems due to repeated stress of the bullshit that they receive. Soon they develop hate towards the people and to the school because they felt the school has not done enough to rectify the situation. As one explodes, shootings result. After that, their families then are being ridiculed and then politicians start taking advantage by playing with people's emotions to gain more votes. Then it is swept under the rug and pretend that nothing has happened. Seriously, what significant changes has been done since the Virginia Tech shootings? Hell nothing changed at all even back in 1999 when the Columbine High School Massacre happened. All they talk about is having more security, when I couldn't stress enough again that it is about your students, your people whom should be concerned about. If you take care of your people properly, there won't be any incidents like this. No happy people who are pleased with their university/school would shoot free-willy for the heck of it. Same goes that if people are happy about your great oh-so-ever-perfect USA, they wouldn't had take two planes and stick it into twin towers.
When the Virginia Tech shooting happened, it didn't really hit me because it was quite far away. Now that it has happened in Illinois, it is about a few hours away from my place. Watching it on the news with my friend, and he was literally freaking out. The thing was that I was trying to make it look like it's no big deal, when it is actually a big deal. However when I see my friend freaking out, I just have to put on the tough mask and try to calm him down. The newscaster who has tears on her eyes are not helping either, and the living room is filled with intense fear. One could not help but feel that YOU ARE THE NEXT VICTIM.
You know, it's wierd. All the metal detectors, sniffing dogs, an army of police officers etc etc are being used to prevent a shooting, when all you ever need to do is to simply reach out to someone in need. It doesn't cost anything except of few seconds of your time to ask what is wrong. That having said, it is only appropriate to say this to all my friends. You are all not alone and I'm there for you. You maybe physically apart but I would try my best to be there for you. I'm fucking serious and mean it that if you need someone to talk to or something, please don't even hesitate for a second to reach out to me. I'll drop everything and hear you out. You can say it's corny for all I care but I would not forgive myself if one day something bad happened to one of my friends and has to resort to desperate measures such as going on a shooting rampage.
There is more than 6 billion people on earth. Many talk about how crowded the world has become and how globalization has make the world a smaller place. However, it is wierd that people are more isolated than ever and the feeling of emptiness is ever more prevalent in one's soul.
As usual, the whole circus act comes around, so typical of an American culture. One of them talks about fencing up all the universities and to install metal detectors upon entering the university campus. I can only imagine if I were late to school and I have to rush to class. Before entering the university I have to get down of my car, strip search me and my car before being able to enter. I guess we have a new excuse of why we're late. I'm sorry Mr/Mrs Professor, I was late cause the police thought my ipod was a detonator. The Americans are such that they are looking for the cure rather than preventing it. They focus so much on how to make the universities safer, when the root of the problem are the students itself. What makes a student hate the place so much that he wants to shoot everyone he could find? Have you people, who is supposedly the best country in the world realize that the problem lies within the psychological welfare of the students? Or American citizens in general?
Of all the shootings that I've found, shooters seems to have a similiar profile, and that they tend to be the loners who are often being ridiculed, harrassed or teased at school. Usually these people would develop psychological problems due to repeated stress of the bullshit that they receive. Soon they develop hate towards the people and to the school because they felt the school has not done enough to rectify the situation. As one explodes, shootings result. After that, their families then are being ridiculed and then politicians start taking advantage by playing with people's emotions to gain more votes. Then it is swept under the rug and pretend that nothing has happened. Seriously, what significant changes has been done since the Virginia Tech shootings? Hell nothing changed at all even back in 1999 when the Columbine High School Massacre happened. All they talk about is having more security, when I couldn't stress enough again that it is about your students, your people whom should be concerned about. If you take care of your people properly, there won't be any incidents like this. No happy people who are pleased with their university/school would shoot free-willy for the heck of it. Same goes that if people are happy about your great oh-so-ever-perfect USA, they wouldn't had take two planes and stick it into twin towers.
When the Virginia Tech shooting happened, it didn't really hit me because it was quite far away. Now that it has happened in Illinois, it is about a few hours away from my place. Watching it on the news with my friend, and he was literally freaking out. The thing was that I was trying to make it look like it's no big deal, when it is actually a big deal. However when I see my friend freaking out, I just have to put on the tough mask and try to calm him down. The newscaster who has tears on her eyes are not helping either, and the living room is filled with intense fear. One could not help but feel that YOU ARE THE NEXT VICTIM.
You know, it's wierd. All the metal detectors, sniffing dogs, an army of police officers etc etc are being used to prevent a shooting, when all you ever need to do is to simply reach out to someone in need. It doesn't cost anything except of few seconds of your time to ask what is wrong. That having said, it is only appropriate to say this to all my friends. You are all not alone and I'm there for you. You maybe physically apart but I would try my best to be there for you. I'm fucking serious and mean it that if you need someone to talk to or something, please don't even hesitate for a second to reach out to me. I'll drop everything and hear you out. You can say it's corny for all I care but I would not forgive myself if one day something bad happened to one of my friends and has to resort to desperate measures such as going on a shooting rampage.
There is more than 6 billion people on earth. Many talk about how crowded the world has become and how globalization has make the world a smaller place. However, it is wierd that people are more isolated than ever and the feeling of emptiness is ever more prevalent in one's soul.
Valentine's Day
Being in the US, like most every other major occasion Valentine's Day is nothing more than a money making fiasco where the people who are really celebrating it are the florist who reaps in obscene amounts of profits from the sale of roses. Ever since coming to the US, the people kinda dull the whole thing; they dilute the meaning of the celebration so to speak.
I remember two years ago when I first got together with Elsie, the day before V. Day I spent the whole day in Mid Valley scouring around gaining ideas upon what to give to her. Even back in Malaysia, all the buzz about V. Day was huge as well, albeit not as bad as US, where every single fucking advertisements is about have you buy this diamond ring for her? have you buy this rose? have you buy buy buy buy buy buy buy buy buy................ Ok back to what I was trying to say, I got her this heartshape Leonidas chocolate that costs around Rm200 (about 60USD). And then I got her the customary rose for about RM15 (4.50USD). Suffice to say, she was quite happy and since we were together for barely a month, the honeymoon period was very much alive, so I thought at that time.
Fast forward to today, and I have a few of my single friends moaning about the cruel and lonely fate that has bestowed upon them, which is why we're single. It's as though it is the end of the world if they had no date for V. Day and it is like a social stigma not to have a date on V. Day. To be honest, I thank the almighty god for being single this time as I don't have to splash obscene amounts of money to please my significant other. In US the V. Day is brought into a whole different level, where like I said above you must buy this if not V. Day isn't complete and if you so happen to date a typical materialistic ignorant American, your date is sure to kick you out cold to freeze your balls off. V. Day has become a comparison ground for women to see which one has the most extravagant, most romantic, most lavish V. Day. It's as though the women all over the world would conglomerate and then hand out the oscar awards. Those who didn't make the cut would be sure to receive endless lashings from their gf for the rest of the year.
Oh I'm sure some of you must be thinking I'm sour grapes, but trust me I am not, seriously. I mean it was cool that I was shopping for gifts for my significant other being all chirpy and bouncing along buying gifts, but I've been there done that. My emphasis now is based on just doing the little little things in life, which unfortunately for most girls do not comprehend that. When I broke up with Elsie, she actually told me that when I gave her the gifts I didn't give her appropriately and so on. She told me that I left the presents at the backseat when I know she would put her books behind the car. She said that if I want to make it as a surprise she isn't impressed at all. Well to begin with I didn't plan it as a surprise. Secondly with all the effort that I've done, all she could remember when she broke up with me was how I didn't place the gifts at a place where she couldn't have seen. You should have seen my face at that moment. I think I had the most perfect WTF look on my face.
On a more bizarre note, I'm going to meet up with Elsie on V. Day to settle the phone bill and pass her the keys. I didn't realize it till one of my friends pointed out. They subsequently teased me that she might ask you back on V. Day, which is so corny. I then told them that my gold reserved has been digged dry and that her current 400hp bf has a bigger gold reserve to dig. No point moving back to me anyways.
Ok then, I have to go to sleep soon. I guess I shall call some of my gal friends to see if they had gotten the date that they've wanted or not. Till then happy V. Day to all my friends. Remember that this day is to cherish one another for who they are, not what they buy. Love ya all -xoxo-
I remember two years ago when I first got together with Elsie, the day before V. Day I spent the whole day in Mid Valley scouring around gaining ideas upon what to give to her. Even back in Malaysia, all the buzz about V. Day was huge as well, albeit not as bad as US, where every single fucking advertisements is about have you buy this diamond ring for her? have you buy this rose? have you buy buy buy buy buy buy buy buy buy................ Ok back to what I was trying to say, I got her this heartshape Leonidas chocolate that costs around Rm200 (about 60USD). And then I got her the customary rose for about RM15 (4.50USD). Suffice to say, she was quite happy and since we were together for barely a month, the honeymoon period was very much alive, so I thought at that time.
Fast forward to today, and I have a few of my single friends moaning about the cruel and lonely fate that has bestowed upon them, which is why we're single. It's as though it is the end of the world if they had no date for V. Day and it is like a social stigma not to have a date on V. Day. To be honest, I thank the almighty god for being single this time as I don't have to splash obscene amounts of money to please my significant other. In US the V. Day is brought into a whole different level, where like I said above you must buy this if not V. Day isn't complete and if you so happen to date a typical materialistic ignorant American, your date is sure to kick you out cold to freeze your balls off. V. Day has become a comparison ground for women to see which one has the most extravagant, most romantic, most lavish V. Day. It's as though the women all over the world would conglomerate and then hand out the oscar awards. Those who didn't make the cut would be sure to receive endless lashings from their gf for the rest of the year.
Oh I'm sure some of you must be thinking I'm sour grapes, but trust me I am not, seriously. I mean it was cool that I was shopping for gifts for my significant other being all chirpy and bouncing along buying gifts, but I've been there done that. My emphasis now is based on just doing the little little things in life, which unfortunately for most girls do not comprehend that. When I broke up with Elsie, she actually told me that when I gave her the gifts I didn't give her appropriately and so on. She told me that I left the presents at the backseat when I know she would put her books behind the car. She said that if I want to make it as a surprise she isn't impressed at all. Well to begin with I didn't plan it as a surprise. Secondly with all the effort that I've done, all she could remember when she broke up with me was how I didn't place the gifts at a place where she couldn't have seen. You should have seen my face at that moment. I think I had the most perfect WTF look on my face.
On a more bizarre note, I'm going to meet up with Elsie on V. Day to settle the phone bill and pass her the keys. I didn't realize it till one of my friends pointed out. They subsequently teased me that she might ask you back on V. Day, which is so corny. I then told them that my gold reserved has been digged dry and that her current 400hp bf has a bigger gold reserve to dig. No point moving back to me anyways.
Ok then, I have to go to sleep soon. I guess I shall call some of my gal friends to see if they had gotten the date that they've wanted or not. Till then happy V. Day to all my friends. Remember that this day is to cherish one another for who they are, not what they buy. Love ya all -xoxo-
Monday, February 11, 2008
Happy Chinese New Year
Well, I think I just wanna make a proper post to wish everyone Happy Chinese New Year. As I have missed 2 chinese new years in a row now because of being in US, I've really lost touch of my Chinese side. Damn I also didn't call and wish my parents-leh.
In case you're wondering what I did for CNY, I was busy going to a career fair sucking balls in hope of getting a job in US. Right now my whole focus is upon my marketing class and trying to find a job.
In a pursuit of a career and what not, I always neglected the simple pleasures in life. For me it is a simple as walking at night with snow falling from the sky. I'd always looked at snow as really irritating especially when I'm always rushing to school and stuff. But seriously, when I was just outside walking around my apartment with the snow falling, I told myself that I would pretty much miss this moment when I choose to go to California or even back to Malaysia.
Oh well, I guess I have to keep reminding myself to aprreciate the simple things in life a little bit more. Till then, I have to get back to my work. Happy Chinese New Year again to everyone.
In case you're wondering what I did for CNY, I was busy going to a career fair sucking balls in hope of getting a job in US. Right now my whole focus is upon my marketing class and trying to find a job.
In a pursuit of a career and what not, I always neglected the simple pleasures in life. For me it is a simple as walking at night with snow falling from the sky. I'd always looked at snow as really irritating especially when I'm always rushing to school and stuff. But seriously, when I was just outside walking around my apartment with the snow falling, I told myself that I would pretty much miss this moment when I choose to go to California or even back to Malaysia.
Oh well, I guess I have to keep reminding myself to aprreciate the simple things in life a little bit more. Till then, I have to get back to my work. Happy Chinese New Year again to everyone.
Saturday, February 9, 2008
It's been a while
I'm sorry for the lack of postings recently. I have been busy doing my work assignments, presentations etc. I know I'm only taking like 3 subjects instead of 5 subjects but this marketing class is literally driving me up the wall. Not only I have assignments but also countless frightening presentations that I have to do. The other day I had to do spotlighting, where the lecturer suddenly calls your name up and have to do a 2 minute presentation about the topic that we're learning.
So other than work stuff, things are quite alright. I helped my friend to get a new car today, and I'm so freaking jealous. It's a white Mazda Protege (or 323) and it is the top spec model. I suspect that this car has sport suspension as the ride was quite bumpy not to mention the 4 ventilated disc brakes. Sigh, I wish I have my Honda Fit now.
The other time we went to the gun shop. We were amazed by the amount of guns and ammo in that shop. We were joking that if we were to rob this gun store we can terrorize the whole Kalamazoo just to make things more interesting. On a more serious note, we were able to touch and cajole around with the hand guns and some variety of sub-rifles. The coolest was the Steyr-Aug, which I always use in the Counter Strike game. Hahaha they had a lot of guns in the gun shop that was also in the Counter Strike game. We plan to go there again and ask if there are any target practices around this area. It would be cool to just shoot around for the fun of it.
Ok, that pretty much sums up what I've been doing so far. I'm taking this opportunity to also wish everyone Happy Chinese New Year. To be honest I totally forgot about it until one of my friends wished me. Sigh, this new year I won't be getting any ang paos (money packets) I suppose.
So other than work stuff, things are quite alright. I helped my friend to get a new car today, and I'm so freaking jealous. It's a white Mazda Protege (or 323) and it is the top spec model. I suspect that this car has sport suspension as the ride was quite bumpy not to mention the 4 ventilated disc brakes. Sigh, I wish I have my Honda Fit now.
The other time we went to the gun shop. We were amazed by the amount of guns and ammo in that shop. We were joking that if we were to rob this gun store we can terrorize the whole Kalamazoo just to make things more interesting. On a more serious note, we were able to touch and cajole around with the hand guns and some variety of sub-rifles. The coolest was the Steyr-Aug, which I always use in the Counter Strike game. Hahaha they had a lot of guns in the gun shop that was also in the Counter Strike game. We plan to go there again and ask if there are any target practices around this area. It would be cool to just shoot around for the fun of it.
Ok, that pretty much sums up what I've been doing so far. I'm taking this opportunity to also wish everyone Happy Chinese New Year. To be honest I totally forgot about it until one of my friends wished me. Sigh, this new year I won't be getting any ang paos (money packets) I suppose.
Sunday, February 3, 2008
South Haven
South Haven is a lake beach of Lake Michigan. It is about 45 minutes drive from my place and in the winter you must be crazy going to the lake side. Well, we are a bunch of crazy people so we actually drove to South Haven at 1 in the morning and then walk towards the lighthouse, which is practically all frozen up. Words do no justice and here are the pictures.
As the lighthouse is obivously next to the lake, it has the lake effect, where severe fluctuations of temperature happen when the land meets water. As a result, this structure has been literally glazed with ice. This is no thin ice as it is rock solid and attempts to break it result in my own hand being numb and sore.
This is me at the beneath the structure. Actually there is two post beside me that arches above me and it's all covered in ice. It's as though I'm in some ice cave or something.
This picture would let you understand better my description of the paragraph above.
The view of the shoreline from the lighthouse.
As the lighthouse is obivously next to the lake, it has the lake effect, where severe fluctuations of temperature happen when the land meets water. As a result, this structure has been literally glazed with ice. This is no thin ice as it is rock solid and attempts to break it result in my own hand being numb and sore.This is me at the beneath the structure. Actually there is two post beside me that arches above me and it's all covered in ice. It's as though I'm in some ice cave or something.This picture would let you understand better my description of the paragraph above.The view of the shoreline from the lighthouse.Yes I know we are crazy enough to go there. It was really windy and we were drinking beer to keep ourselves warm. On the way back, my friend spun off the road when attempting to negotiate a bend. Looks like the negotiations went out of hand. Hehe till then.
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